i know most the comments are like "how would u feel if best friends suddenly revealed these feelings for so long" and while yes i agree with most, i think one thing ppl forget already is that jooan just didnt really think to get to know him more (he admits to it and funnily seojoon agrees and disagrees with him lmao in diff chapters). hence the him being a secretary and then finding all the skills seojoon has and that he likes juice. also their whole conversation in chp 83>>> i perceive it as seojoon accepting romantic feelings werent gonna be returned he also accepts that this person isnt paying enough attention to me is fine its whatever as long as i can be with him (do i wish he was more proactive? yes both then and now.... but then he said he wanted to hide that fact he was into guys). i dont think seojoon ever wanted to chase jooan but i think the salt in his wounds was seeing/helping jooan chase hajin. idk if this makes sense but i do see it from both sides. author set them up so well im so curious how its gonna pan out!!
i kinda love how much the author is depicting how much the debt and his lifestyle was weighing on him. love me character development for a mc with a good head on his shoulders