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In the novel, the main character is portrayed as deeply conflicted. He struggles to define his desires and grapples with a troubled past. Despite resenting the female lead for her easy life, he is torn when he witnesses her suffering. He harbors conflicting feelings about her well-being, oscillating between wanting her harm and being haunted by the idea of her death, he wrestles with the dichotomy of wanting her to be miserable while also cherishing the memories of when they were happy. Societal pressure adds another layer, as he feels obliged to align with the general disdain towards her, despite treasuring the moments of love they shared. This complexity may be challenging for the manhwa adaptation to convey effectively.