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There's nothing worst than being tested without one knowledge or consent. Especially in the matters of the heart. Garam can't believe how much his relationship with the professor changed in the course of a year and will keep on changing. He's such a resilient person and wants to connect so much with him. Garam thinks he understands him but he hasn't seen what really is on that mind when the professor is conflicted about him.
It scares me to think that the professor is actually waiting for the right moment to really test Garam's endurance/feelings. Yes, he's rough during intimacy but Garam's is getting used to that sadly as a way to be with him. Waiting for the night to get closer, apologizing because he dare to touch him before it's dark, walking on eggshells from time to time in front of the knife itself... But still getting comfortable to say what's on his mind, stand by what he believes and be forward when it needed. That's something Garam really shines. Communication and affectionate king.
Also, that couch will need a cleaning lol