here's a part from the novel during this scene that's super important! it's from shinje's point of view:
Yugeon was making him more unhappy and more miserable at every moment, breaking down everything that made him up one after another. The opposite was also true, of course. Shinje was also steadily and fiercely breaking Yugeon apart.
Shinje never learned how to share emotions normally. Like a plant born deformed and branching out only in abnormal directions. Only murder and suffering were his means. Pushing and forcing Yugeon to his limits, hurting himself in front of Yugeon, gripping his hair in his hand to receive his resentful gaze, only then he finally felt alive. Yugeon was also broken as well. Even before meeting Shinje, it was like that to some extent, and not to mention now.
A poorly made puzzle piece would never fit in with others. However, there were two defective items in one puzzle box by chance, and very accidentally, the defective items fit together. It was a coincidence infinitely close to a miracle. They should have never met each other. There could be no such thing as a normal and happy ending like everyone else for them. If Shinje wanted such a life, he shouldn't have been born in the first place.
...that's why I love him.
Shinje smiled softly. And he graciously accepted the ruin that would throw him into the abyss.
i wish the manhwa would remind the reader more often that shinje fully plans to die when he confronts almuten with yugeon. he's always wanted to die actually. but as the novel goes on and as he spends more time with yugeon, yugeon is starting to shake that resolve. it's going to ruin everything. and as the chapters keep going, you see shinje change his plans entirely so that yugeon can live and so that the only way shinje can die is by yugeon's hands.
Just wondering where you read the novel from. I'd really like to understand the story more TT
i wish they would've just translated the "jjagi" as honey or sweetheart. i hate when the english translation uses babe instead, it just never sounds right.
I was just about to say the same.. it's so cringe
True, I'm dyng from reading it
right, homey and sweetheart are much more affectionate and domestic
babe sounds like it could be a fling
Im glad that it doesnt really say Babe. I found it really weird and unfitting.
checked the novel and the next chapter shouldn't be as harsh thankfully. seodan faces team leader in the team leader's lap the whole time (i think he gets triggered when he's forced onto his stomach?) and the team leader eases up and just has normal sex with seodan, loosening him up with lube and going slowly. after they've both come, seodan seems pretty spaced out because in his head he's thinking about how sex (the rape) was holding him back for years, but... was that really it? was that all that sex is? (and i think what he's thinking here is probably the explanation for why he cries so much during sex, because to him he assumes sex is always super painful and will hurt him. so he's always expecting to be hurt really badly and then left there.) and he has this thought about how there isn't even any blood so he won't have to go to the hospital (unlike before, i think). and when team leader asks what he's thinking about seodan admits that the sex felt good. they talk a little while team leader checks on seodan's body and then they go to sleep together, team leader asking if seodan really doesn't want him to leave first. hopefully the manhwa artist doesn't decide to do their own thing and make the scene harsher (which i'm a little worried about based on their other manhwas...).
Where did you read the novel ?
this is the machine translation but i just read the raws on a krn site
i think the novel did this chapter much more justice
where do you read the novel??
why do i feel like she’ll allow him to interfere with the human world but *only* if there’s another dragon there to combat him. aka, the cardinal.
i loved the way mr. han talked to him in this chapter. i need him to communicate these sweet and reassuring thoughts to seodan more, because seodan obviously needs them.
In case anyone missed it, when you look at the reflection in Yoonsung's eyes you can see the silhouette of a man standing before him, not a woman! Another hint the author dropped that Yoonsung already knows the Hakyung is a man. As well as Yoonsung not wanting the younger girl to sleep in the same room as Hakyung, because it'd be improper!
His eyes in what chapter?!!!!! Please I need to know
It’s Chapter 39 I’m actually crying rn like why is this so sad and good at the same time
i also want to point out that in the novel, yugeon only calls shinje honey/sweetheart because calling him hyung would've been more embarrassing. he also doesn't say it that many times.
the scene, condensed for anyone curious:
"[...] Leader, ah!"
"I don't want to be called like that when we're doing this, sweetheart."
"I, I don't like it, it's weird....."
"Don't like sweetheart, huh? Then..... call me hyung. [...] Say it, call me it."
[...] His heels pressed against Shinje's buttocks, then all his movements stopped abruptly.
"Hon..." Yugeon pursed his weakly open lips. His tongue was heavy and loose, and his pronunciation slurring. "...ey, no..."
[... cutting out a lot of sex bits here, but basically yugeon's come like three times now and is very overwhelmed and his stomach feels weird ...]
"Ah, no..... please! Honey. Stop... I'm scared."
Yugeon ended up begging, already desperate, gasping out heavy breaths. If it would stop this barbaric, sadistic sex, he could even call Shinje ‘honey’ as many times as he wished. Not just that, he felt like he could do anything to stop Shinje.
"'Honey?' Did you just call for me?" Whispering softly like a man soothing his spoiled lover, Shinje bucked his hips, nudging the remaining half of his dick inside. Yugeon's back arched, his hips stuttering. Yugeon came again, squirting all over his chest, his erection flapping along with Shinje's movements.
Omg. Thank you so much for this