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After reading many positive comments, I expected a healthy relationship. Yet it was another toxic one. I guess in the yaoi genre, lack of rape is considered healthy.
The seme first kept distancing himself from the uke, telling him that they were only friends and hiding things from him until his love interest had a breakdown, and that was supposed to be out of love.
Then he confessed, so they became a couple—apparently too early. He already had a plan for both of them, including timing when he would tell the uke about his feelings. From this moment on, he started controlling every aspect of the uke’s life. He was happy that the uke sacrificed his passion and potential career to follow the plan the seme set for them.
He insisted they would not celebrate the uke’s birthday and would study instead, ignoring the uke’s request. He imposed a no-sex rule before the exams. After the exams, he decided that the uke would have sex with him and that the uke would be the bottom, without bothering to ask about consent.
Finally, he arranged for the uke to live with him in a place he chose, not only without asking, but without even informing him—of course, out of “love.” And obviously, the good uke submitted every time, happy with all this “love” he received, and not having his own life outside of the relationship.
I wrote an accurate description, because the current one is misleading [big thanks to everyone who pointed it out! without you I would never read this lovely manga]:
“I just want to live in a world… where I’m loved unconditionally by someone,” thinks 29-year-old Kunimi as he jumps in front of a moving train. Instead of dying, however, he wakes up as his teenage self. He does not remember why he wanted to kill himself as an adult, nor what happened during high school. Is this a second chance for him to find happiness? And who is Gaku, who is not only handsome but seems to genuinely care about him? Kunimi has the impression that he has forgotten something important…