Pinkbellis5

1)started when I was 17yo, so 8 years ago
2) peer pressure, definitely. Then stress and finding a comfort zone in it.
3) tried to quit twice:
- first time when I was in a hospital and wasn't allowed to smoke anyway, actually quit for 3 weeks but didn't last long. Don't remember how I started again tho
- second time was 2 years ago when I moved. I gradually minimized my smoking day by day with an app until I was down to 3cigs/day, but my discipline started lacking due to work stress ("one more isn't gonna change anything" "no one will know" etc.) and then gave up bc I couldn't cope
I will stop when I move to my girlfriend bc Sweden is very anti-smoking and has made it illegal to smoke in public spaces. Social pressure to stop smoking definitely helps imo and where I live (Germany) there is close to none.
4) I get anxious, because smoking breaks are my solace/breaks from life. I need the routine in my life, and without I get stressed/more prone to panic attacks
5) what I'd do with it: finance my next move/apartment and buy stuff. Probably go on vacation. I'm aware of the money that goes into smoking (I'm smoking 4-5 big packs per week = ca.45€/week or more in Germany) and of course I feel guilty about it, but at the same time I think everyone has something they spend more money on than they should (I.e. Alcohol, games, candy, going out, idk). It helps me cope with life rn and as long as it's not driving me into financial ruin (which it isn't) I don't see much of a problem.

Hope this helps! Sorry if I ranted here and there haha just didn't want to leave you hanging with half-answers.

Well I'm not the perfect example but here it is
1.I started at the age of 17(I'm 27 now)
2.My friend gave me one and I tried it ( I was also going through some shit that time )
3 .I quitted when I was giving my college exams but then at summer I started again .Not that I made a big effort to quit tho.
4 The time I wasn't smoking I felt pretty temptated .The first week was cool but then I wanted something to occupy my mouth.I want that freedom the cigarette offers .Tbh I also wanted to feel badass not only for the others but for my self too. I wanted to feel the bitterness of the nicotine that made me feel like a fucking delinquent.
As I said I started up again after the exams were over (3 weeks)
5.I know that this sounds very tempting.I would try my best to cut it really .It's become more than an obsession now .My father's a doctor and has spoken to me many times about the cons of the cigarette.Its a slow and savage death.Tbh I am an asshole and I don't see the far future but only the near one .
But really if I was offered that money ,that could be a motivation to stop. Maybe .
I would give my best in any way

Thank you so much I thought no one was actually going to reply

Thank you so much for replying. Good luck in the future.

Actually I'm a former smoker but I'll answer these..
1) I started at 12 I think? No one asks for Id's where I live and I used to buy cigs for my uncle all the time anyway.
2) What started it was how cool it looked and made me feel like an adult...later I had other friends that smoked too and that became a habit.
3) Like I said, I' a former smoker, I quit when I was 20 or 21 because that's when I started to really understand how important it is to have a healthy lifestyle (I changed my food habits and started exercising too). and YES. It WAS hard. It's mostly a mental and psychological battle. (at least for me. and even now, more than 5 years later, I still miss smoking sometimes)
4) Well I used to get cranky if I couldn't smoke. Especially in the morning or whenever I sat down for coffee as that was one of my favorite moments in my everyday life.
5) I would totally go on a vacation (or buy crazy amounts of clothes and shoes)

uuh does this count for weed bc ive never smoked a cig. ive hit a vape on 2 occasions but thats all the nic ive smoked lol

1. The really first time, I was 13 I think. I tried once and never did again until I was 16.
2. Frankly, everybody around me smokes and I was in à pretty deep dépression then. I started because it helped control my anxiety (though etudes says it's the opposite) and thought I'd stop when I'd feel like it (lol, what a joke and à dumbass I was)
3. Never really tried but I think about it quite often. The longes I could do was a week because I had no money to pay for it. During 5 days it was hell. The 2other days were better, I could calm down but I was not there yet. And going back to it was a bliss.
4. My biggest issue was that I smoke like a factory. So when I couldn't have à smoke, I didn't know what to do. Smoking is part of any of my activities apart from reading real books but since I was so confused on my lack of nicotine, I couldn't concentrant on anything. I was so irritable that I hold myself up in my room (pretty hard for my mother, thank god, she's quite comprehensive) sleeping at night was difficult too etc. Well, to sum it up, I was thinking about my cigarettes at all times. Nowadays, I got better, I still smoke à lot when at home or with friends (it occupies my mouth so I don't need to talk that much) but I can work 5 jours straight without even thinking about it.
5. I'll scream with joy, place the most of it on my bank account to make profit, spend a bit in shopping and all. It's not like I spend all 17.200$ at once buying smokes. So it wouldn't change that much at how I buy it. It's like telling me "someone gives you 17.200 because in one year, you buy that much food." So ? It doesn't change the fact that people will spend it on other things and still buy their food when needed. It's the same with cigarettes to me.

Sorry if it's hard to understand, my english is not that great. But really, I regret starting to smoke everyday (like I regret getting that one tattoo in particular) But I assume my mistake.

I forgot to add. I don't want to stop because "smoking kills". Because Following that logic, I could die any time because I don't know what kind of conductor will come through my path while I'm walking on the street or because I choke on a fucking grain of rice etc. People (mostly stranger) likes to suddenly come beside me and say "smoking will kill you" and apart from the fact they just broke my alone time (the worst was that time I was listening to Chopin and the woman wouldn't go away until I'd listen to her.) with some bullshit so I'd just want to choke them to death with their useless small talk and brain, I just answer: "so ? Does it mean you're immortal if you don't smoke ?" what do those people think (if they have this faculty at least)? That I'd go : "oh ! You're right !" and throw my cigs and all and go take a walk? No.

ik its none of my business rlly but if u still struggle with anxiety u should try smoking cbd or try some edibles. it works well for me and my best friend. calms me down n shit. idrk how it works for others or if its rlly as effective as i think it is but its healthier than cigs (which ik u dont care about but still)

What's cbd ? And sorry but since the only definition I have of "edibles" is "food", well, of course I eat, like everybody.

cbd/cannabidiol is a natural chemical compound found in cannabis. its closely related to thc which is the chemical in weed that gives u a high. cbd is similar to thc but basically without the high. its used to treat some forms of epilepsy and even tho its not officially used to treat anxiety a lot of ppl use it for that reason. and by edibles i meant cbd infused food like gummies n stuff. u can find cbd oil and edibles online n shit but u can also find cbd vape carts in smoke/cbd shops and online too.

Nvm I found it, it was called bad boys romance