how to make betas even more beta, i swear alfa, super alfa, ultra alfa, omega, super omega, ultra omega, we're just having all the 0.001% of the population meet randomly in seul
didn't expect that, tbh
like, kind of a dick move to kill yourself in bed next to your lover
i mean, i guess if you wanna hurt him too, making him wake up next to his dead lover is a sure way to scar him for life
But do remember that he did lose his family,, he lost his will to live, his mind was unstable and was only thinking of disappearing in this world which is why he did that
yeah but kill yourself by yourself (〜￣△￣)〜
okay skip this if you're sensitive about this topic, i think I'm gonna come off as very cold and asshole-y, BUT
I'm not trying to shame him for making the to-die choice, it's just that it was very selfish and rude in a different way than usual.
like, if one wants to kill the one person they have full ownership over, aka themselves, they can, that's not selfish it's just exercising your own rights over your own body. the selfish part is not the death itself, it's how you do it and who you leave behind. like, even ignoring the who you leave behind to mourn you, as most suicidal people don't really think about this, and i get it that it's because they feel like they don't have anything and anyone left to think of, but even just being the poor unlucky person who finds the post-suicide person can mess with gis sanity.
idk i often think, when i hear that someone killed themselves by jumping off the roof, about the people down there who have to witness that and what that does to them, and it just makes me feel like the person who jumped was very self-centered, only focused on their own pain
AND MC LEFT ML, THE GUY HE KNEW LOVES HIM, TO WAKE UP NEXT TO THE CORPSE OF THE PERSON HE LOVES
he willingly, aware-ingy, did that
so it leaves me to think either he was trying to hurt mc too, which os not implied by nothing else in rhe story, or he was so lost in his own grief that he just stoped thinking and was willing ro cause immense pain to the people he cared for, which I'm perfectly willing to judge
i get he was imprisoned and couldn't go jump on the ocean, but the least he could do was kill himself on the bathroom, not in the fucking bed where his lover slept peacefully
it was stupid as well because he knew ml has healing abilities, or maybe subconsciously he wanted ml to fix him, who knows
please don't feel insulted by my long comment, i just wanted to rant as I've gone through having someone i truly love consider suicide and I'm incredibly sour about how little it mattered how much pain their death would've caused, and I know that sounds like putting their pain on second importance level, but the pain left behind is not unimportant either, especially when you know they also love the people they leave behind
so to me that was the case to mc too, we clearly see in the story that je cared for ml, and understood he had to act as king and didn't blame hom personally, and was just on so much pain and wasn't thinking, but he should've fucking though about it, and I'm dying on that hill
MC calls his boss a novice sadist but honestly deciding by yourself that someone is a sadist just cause they're an asshole is the most novice thing ╮(￣▽￣)╭
Guys riddle me this.
Also this is based of only half of chapter 11 cause i couldn't stand to finish it.
So, IF this is a world where we have concepts like interviews for jobs, in steps too, and job security and all these stuff. THEN I'm gonna asume, as my logic demands, that there's stuff like HR departments too, or demon resources department whatever. anyway, so, for the incubus job, would it not stand to reason that you could actually choose what you do and what you can't do? as in what job you take amd what job you pass on to the next incubus? as in if your sex dream partener that is getting incubus-ed gets too rowdy for what you signed up for, you can just call security and get the fuck out?
you know, in present times and in the past, up to medieval times, high end prostitutes would have guards or their pimps that would stand guard and be ready to barge in at any semblance of a call for help as to ensure the clients don't damage the merchandise? i mean, mc isn't trying to solo incubus, he's applying for a fucking job in a universe where being an incubus is a fucking job with good perks
so my point was that the top's whole "you think you can take being forced to have sex when you don't want to as an incubus does" doesn't work in this story's setting and the only rapist is the braindead top who seems to only want a housewife from an mc who wants to work
also, anything important happened in the latter part of the chapter that i missed? thanks
After reading the novel, idk, I like the ML so much more, here me out. ML had no idea what he felt and how emotions really work because of the way he was raised and all that backstory and at every step of the way he was actually trying ro do introspection and figure things out, he just didn't know where to look. and he was always, always trying to take MC's feelings into consideration. don't get me wrong, still an ass, but mc was in love with him regardless so I'm guessing that was part of the charm, cause you don't hust fall in love with half of someone, and if you do then it's projection not love. anyway, being in his mind and seeing how ML thinks, I got more and more pissed with how MC just constantly assumed how ML felt, "cause he knows him", supposedly, and in his mind never really gave ML a chance to begin with.
What I mean is, MC always went "this is how I feel and I'm sure that's how ML feels, so there's no chance for us i need to give up my love" and all the while ML was like "what the fuck do I feel and what the fuck does MC feel, I have no ideea I just want to stick close"
I mean I like them both, don't get me wrong, it's just bothering me how mc passes as the more righteous one when he too was a coward who never tried to win the love of ml but just assumed things and gave up. (▰˘◡˘▰)
Hi, do you have a link to the novel? Or what you searched to find it? Thanks
I think it was somewhere down in the comments, but here tou go
https://cherrymist.cafe/chapter/imm-ch-1/
hope it works
guys i feel lije i stumbled over the raws at some point but I can't find them right now, plz help (づ￣ ³￣)づ
Yes if anyone has the raws
I just want to know that there's a moment when MC finds out that everyone around him lied and drugged him and forced him and forcend themselves on him and manipulated the shit out of him and he had a breakdown and I know that would result in all of them having a groveling arc instead of mc just fucking off somewhere else to live a good life away from all of them, but please please I need to know he doesn't just get over this easy peasy
I kinda feel like Hardy would eventually give in, not that easily but still giving in. He himself admitted that he cant bring himself to hate Abel as he fell for him, but he is devastated that Abel didnt trust him and broke the trust that Abel would respect him (ch 42 raws). I think the bigger devstation for him would be learning how Gray manipulated him and caused his engagement to break off. I too hope that Hardy escapes from this mess and clear up his name and return back to his family or become a mage with that mage guy
I love the idea that the author wanted to wrap this up quicker but the characters became to real that they couldn't rush them into things that didn't seem to fit their own peace
I'm sorry but that's no longer introversion, that's stupidity. you're getting accused to your face that "you make it so obvious you wanted to break up" and you can't muster up a wdym? but you can do vague questions during sex (╯°Д °)╯╧╧
literal example of y so many of these nonchalant men get broken up with…. HOSU BEAT HIS ASS