beta
My chest started to feel tight at one point this shit hurts ;_;
Calling her his outcome and his reason pretty much sums up his motivations, he doesn't find pleasure in putting her through this shit, he just thinks she deserves it but we can see it pains him too. Maybe this is his own way of repentance for being in love with her. He's kinda like saying you're a bad person but i'm worse because i want you so i'll suffer with you.