garam deadass needs to break heejae in the worst way possible for him to suffer even half of the cataclysmic shit he put EVERYONE around him through
unfortunately knowing him, if that were to happen, he’d delude himself into thinking its because ppl can’t handle his sharp edges instead of the other way around, in which he finally dulls his sharpness for the sake of empathy. I’d say heejae is so far up his narcissistic ass he fails to fathom his own shortcomings as fault of his own but rather due to the supposed incompetence of others
he so desperately wants to disguise his faults as this sort of grand artistic ploy, inflicting pain and provoking hatred in others and reasoning it as majestic technique but all of these schemes fall short because in actuality, heejae’s the loneliest, saddest, most pathetic man. like heejae you aren’t no knife, you’re just a miserable, unloved man and garam gotta be mother mary to see gold in scraps
in a way, i think heejae was already attracted to garam from the start. listening to garam fluidly pick apart and understand the underlying meanings behind the musical songs probably gave heejae a slim hope that he (as a complex music sheet) could also be picked apart, examined at its barest, to be acknowledged and appreciated. he’s so pathetic that he can’t put down his pride and genuinely ask to be loved so he has to resort to pricking people to see how much they can tolerate before they leave him and then he’d hate them but he’d hate himself. oh heejae u 50s pushing pathetic Unc
mokyeon u gotta let go (of those big hard nanjo pecs) u gotta move on (into nanjo’s tight lil hole) it’s not healthy (like my obsession w nanjo’s nipples) it was all about lust anyway (lusting for nanjo’s chocolate brown cookie) sometimes it’s best to think about other alternatives (alternating between jiggling nanjo’s fat breasts like a seesaw)







hey guys it’s chapter 19 now and I’m not seeing any more cats but dudes pissing themselves? i thought the manhwa was about cats cause its got cats in its name