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There is this manga that I can kinda remember the name of and it’s like I want to die before I’m 30 or something like that it’s a bl and I can’t seem to find it it’s annoying me sm

It’s a straight one and it’s rlly BDSM like and it’s a blond prince called Richard and a black hairs princesses called Courtney and she’s like the dom of the relationship if anyone remembers the name can you please tell me