ITS SO FUNNY HOW THEY LOOK LIKE Y/N MEMES SOMETIMES ISTG their size difference is absurdd lmaooo
It's very strange to me how Soongap still refers to Bongchun as master T^T
Bongchun never thought of Soongap as his slave, but rather a person who was on the brink of death that he rescued and later became his friend. I understood why Soongap thought of Bongchun as his master, cuz Mr. Jeon did technically sell him to Bongchun, and Soongap already had a lot of trust issues with ppl, and could never truly believe that he would be free. But eventually they built enough trust to overcome Soongap's anxiety, he was never even made to do any chores, and free to leave if he wanted to, but the power dynamic of being in a master-slave relationship remained and their relationship never got properly addressed. I'd like to hear them both call each other darling, or by each other's name, instead of "Master" lol
I really love what they did with the story upto chapter 68. We had a good conclusion on Pilgyeon's part in the story, where he supposedly gives up/learns to let go after realising what he was doing to Soongap was exactly what his father did to Soongap's mother
(im referring to when Bongchun was gone and Pilgyeon was staying the night with Soongap at Mr. Goo's house.) Pilgyeon saw Soongap's mom's lifeless expression on Soongap's face while he was trying to rape him. This scene was profound to the story, because in the earlier chapters, Bongchun tells Soongap he wishes he would be his bride forever, and Soongap's gets depressed, saying "I'm just a slave, what i want doesn't really matter/i dknt have a choice," "so if you wanna keep me here forever then do that". To which Bongchun corrects/comforts him by saying that Soongap is free to leave anytime he pleases, that Bongchun won't hold him back, and even offers him some rice and cotton to take with him for his journey. This establishes a stark difference between Bongchun and Pilgyeon. I believe that staying with Bongchun made Soongap forget, even for a little bit, that he was a slave cuz he felt safe. Which is why when Pilgyeon is actively trying to rape Soongap, Soongap suddenly is reminded of the dreadful reality he's faced with, that hes just a slave, and how futile his resistance is, so he repeats the same line (to Pilgyeon this time) while losing all hope, "I'm just a slave, what i want doesn't really matter," "you'll just use me like a tool then leave me for dead"
After that Pilgyeon stops forcing himself on Soongap and doesn't actually go through with the rape, instead, he leaves. That, imo, should've been the end of Pilgyeon's appearance in the story. Because it doesn't graphically depict the act of rape. Instead, we get to see the dehumanising effect Pilgyeon has on Soongap---and experience the dread and despair the victim feels abt constant harassment, pressure, and very impending possibility of being raped, without it becoming fetishism of an actual rape
I lowk really liked this author because she omitted rape upto chapter 68, and i found her depiction of the perpetrators depravity befalling the victim who has no way to escape a very true reflection of what happens in reality.
When Pilgyeon was brought back into the story later on, and actual rape scenes were shown, I felt incredibly disappointed, uncomfortable, and borderline disturbed. I wanted to give this author the benefit of the doubt, because I genuinely wanted to believe she was giving us a truly emotional story about the victim's experience, and not sexualizing assault like I've seen so many other creators do.
So I thought, ok, maybe rape scenes were included to make the reader feel uncomfortable on PURPOSE, so we can understand just how horrifying and repulsive a situation like that would be for the victim.
But that doesn't explain why there was a segment detailing Pilgyeon's rape fantasy after getting drunk (somewhere after chapter 70).
So, my question is, why include rape scenes at all? And if it's to understand the victims experience better, why include a scene where the perpetrator is IMAGINING it?
It felt like they showed us how Pilgyeon was aware that Soongap wasnt actually related to him by blood, as if that justifies Pilgyeon's attraction to Soongap? Just cuz ya'll aren't related, doesnt mean that forcing yourself on someone is okay, it just makes things slightly less weird cuz its not technically incest T^T. (Still, it FEELS like incest, cuz they always treated each other as brothers... and Soongap never finds out that they're not related btw)
Besides that, the death of Mr. Jeon was pretty anticlimactic, and it was also absurd to me that Pilgyeon comitted... by saying "sorry" to Soongap, and then falling off the cliff. Is that supposed to be his form of repentance or smth? Cuz that does NOT show remorse at all, he just created more trauma for the victim, and it doesn’t really make sense for him to randomly do that when he's shown no signs of ending his own life prior to this. And the fact that he actually survives, but loses his memories instead of ever paying for his actions is so frustrating. How come he gets to live an blissful life of ignorance after causing Soongap so much trauma and suffering?
I also really wish we got more perspective on their emotions and their thoughts, especially with Bongchun and how he sorted out his feelings about his father's teachings. But idk... Bongchun is so strong, I think he should've participated in the revolt. His father meant he shouldn't cause anyone harm needlessly... but it should be okay to do that when it's to save people's lives ykwim?
Anyway, thanks for skimming through my unnecessarily long rant lol. Despite evth i said, this was overall a pretty well-written story that I enjoyed reading ♡
I CLICKED ON THE NEXT CHAPTER AND THERE WAS NOTHINGGGGG OMG THIS CANT BE THE ENDDDD
Where are the dates? the wedding? their anniversary? what abt the holidays and birthdays that have yet to be celebrated?? I NEED MOREE or im fr turning into a vengeful spirit like the fujoshi haunting their apartment (T^T)
Gosh, the fujoshi ghost had so much aura! The shaman really said, dw, even though there's a literally DEMON haunting the main couple, there's another spirit that's even STRONGER who'll protect them (๑•ㅂ•)و
The depth this story had was truly unexpected for how silly it started off, but I just love that we got to explore both of their struggles and how they managed to overcome it (although I wish I could've seen more about the ukes life ngl)
The ending was really rushed, id be super interested in seeing extras where we get a proper conclusion on the seme's mom and how she's (hopefully) doing much better now and the uke being more prioritized, as well as more scenes of our sweet main couple being all lovey-dovey!
ITD ALSO BE SO COOL IF WE GOT A SIDE STORY ABT THE LONG-HAIRED GUY WHO INTRODUCED ML TO THE SHAMAN AND THE BLACK-HAIRED GUITARIST (≧∇≦)
I love how the seme was GENUINELY SO STRESSED that his bf was losing interest, BRO JUST SPLIT INTO 3 (same bro same)
The uke saying he was absolutely gaga abt the seme from the start (ノ≧∇≦)ノ
Such a clumsy drunken confession, but i absolutely loved it!! the lack of anticipation/angst was good for my fragile heart, they're just so silly and sweet, pure fluff with just the right dash of comedy and sex!
I feel like I learned more abt bdsm from this than any forum could teach me, so informative (im never putting it to use LOL)
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I rlly wish we got side stories about that doctor, i kinda shipped him with the bottom's green-haired friendd
the ending felt pretty rushed (T^T) but other than that it was a pretty good read!
soooo cute, I can't help but think they look a lot like Jaekyung and Kim Dan LMAO
I absolutely adore the plot and character dynamics, so this was a really good read!
I wish they were more open to telling others that they were dating cuz everyone kinda knows anyway, but I totally respect that they wanna keep things private. I just love 'em!
the whole story was genuine slop and im pretty sure the author just pulled anything outta her ass as an excuse to draw more rape and make it as grusome as possible. Obviously accountability doesn't exist, cuz if it did, how would all the sick-fucks who fetishize assault and sexual abuse get off?
But what pisses me off is how this isn't even the worst thing out there, atp I've read so much of this kinda content im genuinely desensitised
But my resentment never ceases, I always wonder how stuff like this winds up topping the charts. I'm not even asking for a good story anymore, just not... THIS stuff. please T^T