I've posted before about this without spoiling, and it physically HURTs me that people are giving out wrong spoilers based off some google translate thing they didn't even bother to cross reference. A lot of spoilers are out of context of the whole story and omits SO MUCH so i'm going to explain it as best as I can, referring to my previous post. These spoilers are coming from the novel version btw, and whether or not JAXX choses to adapt them will be another issue altogether. But anyway, here goes. There are several major factors and characters I shall address.
1. Ryan (Blonde dude from earlier in the series)
He has a much bigger role in the books than in the webtoon thus far, but idk how big his role might be ahead because he has a major role to play in the latter half of the series. As far as I know, he is NOT a love rival or anything of that sort. There has never been and isn't going to be anything romantic between him and McQueen at all. He harbours certain hatred McQueen for reasons, blames him for a lot of his ongoing issues and he has a lot . He has a son, with a prostitute and he also seems to have drug issues and is generally pretty messed up. In the novels, he and Ed live together, and McQueen and Ed have meals with Ryan and his son Cecil, even helping to take care of his son because Ryan isn't really the best parent.
He is actually the main reason why Ed and McQueen break up. But more on that in a bit.
2. Ed and McQueen
In the books McQueen is seen doing a lot more porn that in the webtoon to begin with; here he seems like he does more of the background work like directing etc. But in any case, novel McQueen and Ed BOTH continue to film porn with other partners, although Ed only ever bottoms for McQueen after. In the novels, there's no confession at the train station. They get together, but there's no actual verbalisation of the "I love you"s till much later. So although they're making porn with other people, they're also not exclusively together in the books at this point. I believe McQueen initially hoped to kind of do couples porn with Ed, but at some point after they do both stop doing porn anyway. But in any case, obviously the webtoon should differ from that.
Third parties are never a major major issue in the books for our main pair. They do love each other, although it takes a much longer time for McQueen to verbalise it there. Yes there is a 'love triangle' of sorts with Chang, but the feelings of the main pair never wavers for each other, although circumstances in the later parts do drive a wedge between them. The McEd pairing is actually quite fluffy in the books as well.
A major plot point in the novels. revolves around McQueen's writing of the movie's script. A journalist basically finds out that McQueen is the director of that movie, and it makes the news. Its huge news, and it goes on broadcast that a pornstar directed a religious movie. The website is being overloaded by views – and the site Ed's audition film with McQueen (for a DVD) is on there. The next day he goes to work, its obvious that all his coworkers know about his doing porn. Ed is asked to resign from his job as a security officer due to security reasons.
Upset, Ed then tries to contact McQueen, but he is unable to call through to him. This is because McQueen was being hounded by journalists at the time and he explains it to Ed. They then talk about plans for the future, like going on a cruise and stuff. Ed gets a little drunk, and confesses he watched a porno with McQueen and Ryan. More context on this is that Ryan and McQueen did something like a 'non-consensual' kink play? It's not actually non-consensual and its not rape for sure, but Ryan apparently has a history of sexual assault prior and told Ed before that McQueen exploits vulnerable men for money i.e. something like he basically did the shoot because he was in a vulnerable position (drug issues money issues etc.). Ed watched the porno, and then tell McQueen he agrees with Ryan that what happened was rape. McQueen is livid to think that Ed could think something like that of him, and says something along the lines of "I can't believe I was falling in love with you". They break up and don't contact each other for weeks after that.
Ed gets a job at the airport, but its not very stable. Prior to this, Ed had already stopped doing porn was also working for Chang doing some security, but he stopped that too after the porn reveal and hasn't contacted Chang since.
Lancer contacts Ed who is now in high demand because of the porn reveal, and asks him to do escort/prostitution work with him (He gave him an Escort card way earlier in the novels I think as an invitation already). Ed wonders if McQueen will find out, and then decides that he "doesn't care" and so on New Years Day, Lancer tells him that he's got this client and that Lancer raised the price on him (because of his high demand); Ed doesn't know who he is, but he turns up anyway. The client is Chang.
3. Chang
Chang hasn't met Ed since the porn reveal, New Years Day is the first time they're meeting after the reveal. Chang doesn't believe at first that Ed actually came, and Ed tries to walk away after realising its Chang. But Chang physically grabs him and tells him he paid for him, showing him the escort card he took from Ed's apartment (given by Lancer earlier). Chang offers to make Ed's debt disappear – if he stays beside him for a year. Ed considers and then refuses thinking this guy is the one who even ruined his life by saddling him with this debt in the first place. They argue, Chang makes jibes about Ed doing sex work and Ed, fed up, asks him if he wants to be fucked. Ed pulls down Chang's zipper to prove a point.
Then Chang pushes Ed onto the bed and starts getting physical with him. At several points, Ed says it hurts, and that he wants it to stop. Chang mocks him, bites him, and continues anyway. Ed tries to punch him to get away from him, saying he's changed his mind and telling him to stop. He grabs his clothes and tries to escape several times but fails. Chang r*pes Ed. In this interim, Ed realises that Chang has had feelings for him all along, and that he's just been trying to ignore it the whole time; after the deed is done, he asks Chang if he likes him – and Chang doesn't confirm or deny it. Ed tells him it doesn't matter because Chang is dead to him anyway, and tells Chang he wants to ruin him, like Chang ruined Ed.
He walks out (Chang is still there), to run into McQueen – Ed wondered previously if McQueen was going to find out about him doing escort/prostitution work so he clearly did – McQueen tells Ed he didn't want to break up with Ed in the first place, tells him that he loves him, and that he wants to get back together. Ed wants to say yes, but he just had sex with (was raped by) Chang, so he doesn't respond, just leaves both men without saying anything. McQueen and Chang fight, and Ed sees McQueen again the next day; McQueen tells him he doesn't care about the whole Chang thing, and they get back together.
McQueen tells him he's quitting porn for him and selling the company, and tells Ed to check his bank account – $500,000, which is the amount he owes Chang. Chang actually confesses his feelings to Ed after this, and Ed tells him he doesn't care and to check his bank account, that's his answer. Essentially he pays off his debt, and from there he's saying that they no longer will have any ties to each other.
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So essentially I wanted to clarify a few things.
Ed didn't lose his bodyguard job because of McQueen but the journalist actually, and McQueen didn't abandon him because of the reveal at all. He had a huge debt to Chang – but McQueen didn't pay it off probably because $500,000 is kind of not pocket change?? He sold his company and paid off Ed's debts. McQueen is not the cause of Ed doing escorting; that's Ed's choice. Their break up was NOT caused by Ed not wanting to do an adult movie with McQueen.
McQueen and Ed's relationship is complex, and ultimately human. They make mistakes and there's miscommunication and there's arguments of course, but there's also reasons why certain things unfold the way they do. The novels are way longer than the webtoons, and lots of things have been and will be taken out. So bear in mind that too.
I hope this helped in some way and if anyone else is going to bullshit about the 'spoiler' without knowing what they're talking about again i'm going to hit the roof.
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2019-07-19 06:08 marked
So a bit of detailed spoiler...That banana girl make a deal with the king. If he marry her then the banana family will side with him leaving the queen without her strongest ally. But that deal is to kill the banana family later as revenge for not loving their stupid daughter.
King refuse right away and his servent (I'm really bad with names so sorry ) try to convince him. And that makes him get really angry and heartbroken. So he agreed to the deal and start to say mean things to his servent until he breaks out with tears and almost confess his love.
On igens side...
The spy lady get some secret info to blackmail people around queen mother so by that they got almost everyone on their side and that drive the queen crazy and she send assassins to kill igen and the king servent.
Oh and igen conversation with the brother ended with him reminding igen of his dead parents and how they would feel to find out he is in love with their killer's son. And how deep down he think of this and that's why he never said"I love you to" kassan.
Next ch. Igen talking to spy girl and kassan looking at them from afar feeling lonely and the b$#@÷ notice and whisper in igen's ear just to make kassan more jealous. Which actually worked and he started to think of how much he gave up to get to where he is now and how he deserve igens attention (totally agree. Be gone b$#@#) next they show igen preparing with others for the attack. He goes back to his room talk a bit with kassan and just then the b$#@× come with urgent news. Kassan ask him not to leave just this time to stay. B$#@! Keep on calling from behind the door. After that kassans emotions break and he start to say he's lonely and he gave up lots of things and had to hear about his brother's execution but stay calm and all that. Then he say it'd have been better if he never met igen"
Igen leave. And kassan start to drink and cry. When igen is back kassan tell him he love him and cry more until he's asleep. Then igen say he loves him too but because kassan is drunk and half asleep he couldn't hear it.
Then the attack start and igen leave kassan with zail to take him to the kings room. But half way through with all the commotion of the attack the brother run away. And his pregnant servent too. And it seems zail have something for her (I think they will get married and yes she's not his sister it's confirmed). So zail ask someone to take kassan and he go looking for pregnant lady.
The brother of course kill that someone and take kassan to a high place and ask him to have a last look at his lover as he's going to kill himself taking kassan with him (if you're killing yourself then just F$#@ing do it by yourself) at that moment b$#@! Spy shot an arrow into the brothers heart and kassan (*screaming* B$#@) then kassan start to think he doesn't want to die like that infront of igens eyes breaking his heart and with mean words as his last thing said to igen ( he can't remember the I love you part)....
End of chapter 56 with a very broken hearted igen
Sorry for the bad English and the long post....
Once I read ch 57 I'll post another spoiler if you guys want me to.
Oh and you can read all those ch at tappytoon. Each ch is 4 tokens and it's not that expensive to buy!! Support the author
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HE = Hye-Eun
WC = Woo Chan
MJ = Min Jae
CH 21
HE overhears WC telling MJ that he likes/misses him in the changing room and that he won't return back MJ's items, because that would mean that he wouldn't have an excuse to meet up with him anymore. Embarrassed, MJ quickly leaves (without changing out of his clothes during the shoot).
HE confronts WC about WC and MJ's relationship.
WC reveals that he fell in love (??) with MJ's attitude of never blaming the other person if anything went wrong (For example: people always blame other's if something doesn't have a good outcome). Instances included MJ saying that he's glad WC didn't get hurt (when MJ was seriously injured) etc.
(At the same time, MJ goes back to the changing room because he forgot to change back into his normal clothes). WC tells HE to leave MJ out of her drama and that he cares about her. HE gets flustered and leaves, with MJ overhearing WC's sort-of-confession. WC tells MJ he missed him.
[BACKSTORY ON THE PENDANT: Discussed by MJ's older sister and the manager
The pendant has the power to attract the owner of the pendant to his/her's destined partner. ]
CH 22
WC apologises for teasing MJ this whole time and asks him to forgive him. MJ forgives him and asks WC to take responsibility -- and so WC kisses MJ (and strokes his butt lol).
WC and HE announce their break up publicly (with the breakup reason being they 'naturally drifted apart due to busy schedules' -- the typical korean celebrity break up excuse).
The manager explains to WC and MJ about the pendant and WC asks MJ to call him WC hyung. MJ blushes and everything seems all rosey from here.
However... drama strucks (again ): )
A flashback reveals a worker who was returning to the change room saw MJ and WC kissing. Flustered, he returns back to the studio telling his boss he thought he just saw MJ and WC kiss. Out of nowhere, appears the reporter (that was following WC in the earlier chapters), to explain in detail what he just saw.
CH 23
The worker reveals everything but also adds that it was dark and he probably didn't see everything clearly. The reporter dwells on this, thinking that he needs proof in order to report the story, saying "If [WC] wants to ruin his career, I will gladly help him out"
[transition to another scene]
WC and MJ making out (wait wtf just happened lol) but then just as WC is making his way to MJ's pants, MJ pushes him away saying that this is all happening too quickly.
MJ is overwhelmed with the relationship; Now that MJ is dating WC -- what will other people think? How long will they be able to last? He comes to the conclusion that he can never tell anyone (including his family).
WC tells MJ to stay the night but MJ is still overwhelmed with the negative thought ^. MJ's biggest concern is, how quickly WC moved on from HE, and how WC could also leave MJ. MJ starts crying and telling WC that he thinks they won't be able to happy, because WC has never dated a non-celebrity, let alone a guy.
WC hugs MJ and tells him not to worry, and that whilst he isn't perfect, he will try his best in this relationship. WC gives a gentle kiss on MJ's head and then MJ retaliates with a kiss back on WC's lips. Surprised, WC starts kissing MJ (and etc -- leave the making out to your imagination), but then accidentally grabs onto the pendant in MJ's back pocket. Then, to their horror, they have switched bodies.. again.
CH 24
HE is talking to the reporter... and it looks like she's going to spill the beans. The scene cuts to her asking the reporter how much he knows about everything first.
WC + team (incl. MJ) fly to Australia for a shoot.
The manager explain's to MJ's sister about them switching bodies and the relationship with the pendant. As the pendants were made to pledge eternity with your partner, and existed in pairs, MJ's sister suggests that the other pendant may have to be found in order to fix everything.
[transition]
WC (in MJ's body) leaves the washroom, and bumps into someone. (let me guess, another love interest -_- ). The stranger tells him: "Wow have you forgotten me because we haven't seen each other in a while?". The stranger, WC and MJ (in WC's body) then bump into each other. With a (loving/admiring/caring/blushed ?) face, MJ says: "Is that you, Professor Choi Hyun-ki".
WC is shocked at MJ's expression: What's with that look on your face? What is this guy to you?
And then the webtoon ends on this cliffhanger:
"I should've realised a little sooner, that letting you too meet was a mistake"
[END]
2019-06-10 07:00 marked
yall aint seen nothing yet ;w; this is just the calm before the storm guys and yes this level is still CALM. prepare ur mind and hearts when we get into the super bumpy ride. we need a lot of buckets for our tears, an electric chair for that cheating bastard, and shovel to dig our own grave ;;;;;;;;;so spoilers ahead!!
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for me the most heartwrenching part of this story is about the possibility of zhishu and dr. ai meeting as colleagues. zhishu was gonna study medicine, he was GONNA STUDY AS A DOCTOR LIKE DR. AI but he met this bastard, zhishu went against his parents and neglect his dreams just to be with the man he loved. he sacrificed EVERYTHING because for zhishu, being with him is alrd enough ;;;;
and u think it was gonna be happy when dr. ai took zhishu and hid him from that asshole??? nooooo. the angst doesnt stop there, it goes all the way to the end. dr ai, upon meeting zhishu, he learned to love him even with all these difficult situations. dr ai stayed with zhishu every day and never failed to look after him while they were on the place of his brother. he persuaded zhishu to get treatment but he refused. ya know, he just wanted to make nice memories before he leaves ;;;;;
do u know how painful it is to see the person u love get worse as the day goes by? and u cant do anything but watch and hope that when hes sleeping, he still wakes up tomorrow? and the fact that ur a well known doctor in the field of leukemia, and yet u cant do a single thing to save the person u love the most? and zhishu didnt even wanna reciprocate dr ai's feelings bc he knows that it will be too hard for dr ai. his time is almost up and one thing zhishu didnt wanna do is to robbed his happiness away. in that short amount of time, dr ai treasured zhishu unlike that fucking bastard. do u remember that bone marrow that was supposed to be for zhishu and someone manage to took it away? dr ai was so devastated because he thought it can finally save him;;;; and lmao chapter 26, its the same bone marrow that asshole mentioned. oh the irony :')
zhishu left that fucking asshole on the day before christmas i think, he even left the cat ;;;; but thank god dr. ai have connections and was able to get a hold of him and he was also able to take the kitties with them, and thats where they left and went to his brothers place somewhere far away. they are so precious during the time they spent inside the car ;;; my heart feels happy and sad for the two of them.
that night when the bastard came home, zhishu is alrd gone. ofc he tried tracking him down until he finally saw that his bitch went to their apartment w/o his knowledge. yes bc of that, zhishu was really depressed and finally decided to throw the ring and then eventually left. so he confronted his bitch, OH LOOK HE WAS SO COLD TO HIM AS IF THAT WOULD BRING ZHISHU BACK ASSHOLE DIE IN A FUCKING DITCH. and in his hoe's house, he saw his wedding ring. his ex was gonna throw it away but he tripped on the garbage bin i think??? lol i forgot and there he saw the ring. lmao bro he looks so sad SERVES U RIGHT. U DONT KNOW HOW ZHISHU SUFFERED AND WAS WORRIED WHEN U LOST THE MF RING.
the bastard did everything he can to find zhishu until he knew about dr ai. dr ai's brother (forgot his name) and mr asshole are business partners i think, they know each other. since all he knows is that zhishu is meeting up with a rich doctor, he called jingwen (the doctor who came in ch29) and asked if he knew a doctor who likes plants (those pricey plants) and owns a prestigious car and jingwen immediately answered with "thats dr. ai!" hes a famous doctor for leukemia :') a ha ha ha ha :)))))))))))))))))))))) then jingwen figured it out qnd asked mr asshole to meet in their house. oh boy.
so remember those meds jingwen saw? he finally remembered its for leukemia :') jingwen was so mad at him i think he even punched him. he was so mad because this bastard raped zhishu right? suspected that hes meeting up with the doctor because hes cheating. and zhishu not wanting to show his body is because he wanted to hide the injection marks hes getting from chemotherapy!!! rmbr that time when mr bastard was smoking in ch25 and then zhishu had a nosebleed? and when mr asshole was gonna help him take off his shirt, zhishu refused or pushed him away because hes hiding the marks from chemotherapy!! and mr asshole thinks ges hiding kiss marks in his body OMFG. this is why jingwen was so mad. zhishu being pale and think, he also asked if he never saw any signs? less appetite or no appetite, fever, nosebleeds LIKE BITCH EVERY SINGLE FUCKING SIGN WAS ALRD IN FRONT OF U AND HE DEADASS WANNA BE IN DENIAL. and dr ai even told zhishu that he musnt tire himself out or do anything pyshically draining and this bastard kept having sex with zhishu. he even fucking raped him OH MY GOD I WANT TO STAB CHOP OFF HIS DICK. him knowing about zhishu's illness made him really depress lol AS IF I CARE ABOUT THAT. u never fucking notice because ur too busy "working" the ass of ur co workers u mf, while zhishu was suffering and alone aaaaand u had the audacity to keep lying to him.
jingwen also asked him if he loves zhishu and this mf answered yes (oh yea sure sure, u love him) and jingwen cannot believe his words. jingwen said smth like, he was suffering from leukemia and u were out there having fun and cheating on him and now ur telling me u love him??? RIGHT???? TELL HIM JINGWEN
ok let me skip lol
so mr asshole was able to track down the house dr ai and zhishu are staying and he went there but obviously dr ai didnt let him see our zhishu. he punched him, beat him up, even called a police and reported him for trespassing. zhishu heard all the commotion but he never went to see that asshole (thank god)
(im skipping a lot of things actually but theres a lot more painful things i just cant.... bear to remember it all, again)
okay so im not gonna say how much mr asshole felt bad but he did suffer, its not just enough. its never gonna be enough even tho how many times he asked for forgiveness, even tho how many times he cried, he can never give back all the precious things he stole away from zhishu. NO HE CANNOT GIVE BACK HIS FUTURE AND HIS LIFE AND IDC EVEN IF HES SUFFERING, I WONT AND WILL NEVER SHOW HIM PITY. HE DESERVE ALL THIS PAIN, HE DESERVE TO DIE MISERABLY AND IM NEVER GONNA BE SORRY FOR THAT.
that time when zhishu got rid of his ring, mr asshole saw it and asked zhishu where it is and he brushed him off. he even said that theres no point in wearing it when mr asshole doesnt have his ring as well (ohhhhhhh bitch u deserve that burn) actually on the day before christmas, he didnt wanna go to work and just stay in the house and be with zhishu but zhishu told him to go. he even said that they should buy rings together again (good joke bro) and zhishu hugged him and said goodbye to him, thats where mr asshole knew smth was off but he tried not to think much of it and went to work. shortly after that, zhishu left. it feels good that he experienced this, that he experienced that pang in the heart when zhishu lost the ring. when it was him who lost the ring and zhishu asked where it was, it was very clear that zhishu was soooo hurt. karma got u good and bit u back 10x more painful
he found zhishus ring under the couch and he missed zhishu all over again. he even said that the two rings are together again (only the rings tho) -this happened later on, i think before zhishus bday
also when the snow started to fell, he remembered zhishu making dumplings for him. and now that hes all alone in their house, he wished that zhishu was there and is making dumplings (dude nice joke ur so funny) yea all he can do is wish because it aint gonna happen again!! asshole.
he was so in denial that he even waited for zhishu to come back, always waiting in their house. if in the past it was zhishu who keep on waiting for him, now look how the tables have turned :D he even bought a dog (i think its an akita) because he remembered that zhishu wanted to have it but he wasnt able to keep one,, and this dude was able to raise the dog because he keep thinking that maybe zhishu will come back (as if)
and the fact that he never even met, see, touch, or heard zhishu again (except from one blurry picture) ever since he left makes it all the better :D he and dr ai had each others number, hes looking for the bone marrow to "save" zhishu and hes telling his plans to dr ai. he even called in for professional doctors, theyre just waiting for the bone marrow but i mean lets face it. it was too late for the surgery and zhishu declined alrd. also its not a 100% success that hell recover from leukemia so its like a 50-50 chance.
anyway, zhishu died peacefully. he had no regrets, he had a brief yet peaceful life or what remains of it, with dr ai along with the kitties and the doggo.
on his bday, dr ai gave him a ring and zhishu declined it ;w; (im srsly sobbing rn)
he said that after taking off his ring, he wont be able to wear a ring again ;w; he said smth like its a great responsibility and love thats why the ring is very special and he cant wear it ;w; but in the end, he wore it for him. dr ai pleaded for him to wear it bc hes afraid that he might not see him someday in the afterlife fuuuuuuck ;;;; it was really really hard for dr ai cuz u know... he really love zhishu and to see him in that position is enough to crush his heart. and zhishu knows dr ai loves him and even he likes dr ai, its not that easy for him to completely throw away his feelings from his ex. want proof? theres a time where zhishu had a dream and he kept calling the assholes name... hes also crying on his sleep saying "pls dont go, pls dont go" and dr ai is the one whos there for him ;;;;;; when ur the one whos with him but u know his heart isnt completely urs and that fucking hurts so much. like after what zhishu went through, he still have those lingering feelings ;;;;;;;;;;
they had small talks during zhishu's bday and i think zhishu was eating egg tarts that dr ai made, then dr ai wiped his mouth, licked his finger and laughed because he might fall inlove with egg tarts in the future ;;;;;;; oh my goddddddddddd;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
at that time, zhishu thanked dr ai and his voice was really soft and light. he told dr ai that he will never forget him and if theres an afterlife, he said that he will follow the scent of dr ai's flowers and find his garden (oh fuck) until he reach his room and he said he will be there and will look after him ;;;;;;;;;;;;;; and he laughed softly TT_____TT (this line really tore my heart open) and then dr ai thanked him back for being able to meet him ;;;; and he kissed zhishu in the eyes and he said I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER and after that, he suddenly wanted to cry
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA FUCK IM SO SAD OHMY GOD IMSO FUCKING SAD
u see, while being with zhishu, dr ai has been trying to hide his pain or that hes hurting. he doesnt wanna cry in front of him or show that hes weak. he wanted to be strong for him and to be that someone zhishu could rely on;;;;;;;;
oh btw the asshole came back in that place, (dr ai's brothers place) and he saw that it was alrd empty. and at the same day, dr ai was there and thats where he knew that zhishu alrd passed away. he even begged dr ai and told him to stop lying and it made dr ai furious so he punch him and told the asshole to stop deceiving himself. and all the tears that dr ai bottled up just suddenly came pouring and it was uncontrollable. he was actually shock that he manage to remain calm after zhishu's death but going back in his brothers place, in that same garden, looking at the pool where his dogs fell, the rocking chair, the blankets, the window, the dead jasmine flower that he used to water evevery day when they still lived there together, he couldnt bear it anymore that his heart hurts too much and right there and then he cried, he cried in the presence of that asshole.
like i said, zhishu didnt left any will but his only wish is for his body to be cremated and be thrown in the water or river. dr ai chose lake baikal, its a very vast lake. its beautiful, peaceful and gentle. (its in russia)
the day zhishu died, it was a sunny day and he can barely move. they both sat down near the window on the 2nd floor to watch the flowers. dr ai asked zhishu if hes waiting for the flowers to bloom but he didnt answer. he then fell asleep on dr ai's arms and dr ai smoothed his wrinkled eyebrows. by the afternoon, zhishu is in a deep sleep ;;;;;;;; it was too quiet that dr ai can even hear his own heart beat and he heard zhishu muttered.
"after school, lets go home together."
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in the end, the person in his dreams is that scum ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; (yall feel me ;;;;)
and...
there was a gentle smile in zhishu'a face :') fuck. dr ai just hugged him tightly and didnt let go of him until the night.
do u know that feeling? the person u love the most, the person u want to be with for a lifetime, loses his last breath and his last warmth in ur arms. and the most painful thing of all is the person u love perhaps did not have u in his last memory ;;;;;;;;
it was painful for dr ai, everything that reminds him of zhishu makes him cry like a kid w/o warning. he also kept the 4 cats with him ;;;;;; and the blurry photo of zhishu ;;;;;
dr ai eventually came back to beijing and he slowly wanted to move on from the pain. "he can still go on, its just that HE WILL NEVER FALL INLOVE WITH ANOTHER PERSON IN HIS LIFE AGAIN."
oh my god im so sorry this became more like a vent. i finsihed this novel a 1 or 2 months ago and ive been avoiding giving any summary or spoiler bc the pain is still fresh lol im not a very emotional person, i mean i dont easily cry irl but shit THIS FUCKING HURTS A LOT LIKE NO JOKE. its the kind of pain where i'll suddenly cry whenever i remember it.
im so sorry for making u read this ;;;;
p.s this is from the novel, pure words, no pictures. so imagine seeing and reading this in manhua form, their expression, emotions, oh boy ;;;; im not ready ;;;;;
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2019-06-02 06:31 marked
Ok but Chapters 26 and 27 are better here XDXDXDXDhttps://toonkor.ski/%EB%9C%A8%EA%B2%81%EA%B2%8C_%EC%95%88%EC%95%84%EC%A4%98_26%ED%99%94.html
https://toonkor.ski/%EB%9C%A8%EA%B2%81%EA%B2%8C_%EC%95%88%EC%95%84%EC%A4%98_27%ED%99%94.html
2019-05-29 22:59 marked
I would also like to ask if anyone knows a raws for this manga ♀2019-05-27 20:29 marked
So someones translating the original novel. If anyone is interested I'll leave the link below. It includes some more depth tbh.https://www.novelupdates.com/series/the-decade-of-deep-love/
2019-05-27 19:34 marked
I found rates of anyone wants https://ailurafiliabl.wordpress.com/2018/11/04/yaoi-megumi-to-tsugumi-chap-6/2019-05-27 18:27 marked
RAWS