kamisama's Questions (55)

I think that from bleached to black you need to add red somewhere just to saturate your hair. You should try searching how to dye blonde hair black just to know which step you're missing.

Go see a professional? In my experience, to pass from a dark shade to a very light one is difficult to realize nicely without professional help. And it damages your hair a lot less than if you do it at home. I hope your next dying process goes well! Good luck! ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶

http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/cherry_blossoms_after_winter/?av=4
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/heesu_in_class_2/?av=1
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/blunder_turned_wonder/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/room_to_room/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/sign_language/?av=5
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/make_me_bark/?av=2
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/ordinary_men/?av=1
(Last one is just a normal romance)
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/my_special_squishy_someone/

room to room isn't very healthy ._. for both of them

http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/from_green_kitchen/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/elektel_delusion/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/sayonara_game_minaduki_yuu/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kokoro_kanda_neko/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/fruit_gateau_au_chocolat/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kazoku_ni_narouyo/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/blue_sky_complex/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/tadaima_okaeri/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/shiawase_gohan_maki_to_hanazawa/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/honto_yajuu/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/fushidara_na_hanatsumi_otoko/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kijima_kun/

We actually start when they break up/separate but we slowly learn what happened and they finally meet again and get together in chapter 40. One of the most loving relationships I've ever read. If you want proposals, gay marriage, and no cheating at all... this is it, chief.
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/dark_heaven/

Age gap, one's a gay high school student (17-18) and the other is a straight adult (26). One of the purest pairings I've ever seen. The adult doesn't treat him like shit even when he found out the other was gay. He even welcomed him to hang out at his place from time to time.
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/yamada_to_shounen/

Foodies turned friends that amicably eat out every Friday. They sorta remind me of Yuri and Victor from Yuri on Ice. There's in any heavy drama, the way they gradually got together seems natural. I think they've always been attracted to each other since before.
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/fruit_gateau_au_chocolat/

Another age gap but it's an incredibly wholesome relationship that stemmed from the younger officer's unrequited feelings for the other. I recommend this if you want a good laugh or to just simply enjoy a sweet, domestic type of pairing.
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/boku_no_omawarisan/

Although it seems like one is taking advantage of the other, it's far from the truth. We've gotten so used to seme blackmailing naive ukes into sexual coercion that we forget that it's confusing to be a teenager discovering their sexuality. The uke might be naive in terms of sex education but he's straightforward and honest. If he doesn't like things, he's vocal about it. The seme never pushes, and respects what the uke wants in their relationship. It's sweet.
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/golden_sparkle/

A couple more A+ semes:
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/rumspringa_no_joukei/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/hitotsu_shikanai_mono/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kowagaranai_de_soba_ni_ite/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/ookami_kun_wa_kowakunai/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/oh_my_assistant/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/romantic_pornography/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/friend_line/

My favorite. http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kokoro_kanda_neko/

Any manga by Natsume Isaku http://www.mangago.me/r/l_search/?name=Natsume+isaku
My personal fav:
- Hanakoi Tsurane
- Ameiro Paradox
- Heart no Kakurega
- Kuraboshi Dial

Yaoi isn't healthy on it's own

This whole manga is about a guy who has to hold it in
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/gurume_no_fukurami/
There is a short part here
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/chou_to_hana_no_kankeisei/

http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/if_you_hate_me_that_much/
Ch. 25, sounding not by seme but he helped to take it out

Actually a lot of scenes similar to what you described comes up in my mind, but I can't remember the titles. Sorry, might come back when I do

Hey! I might have some of the same kinks as you. Search for edging, orgasm denial, and bdsm as well maybe?

Off the top of my head, a few of Zaria's works have it like Kinbaku ( http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kinbaku/) or Pet Keiyaku ( http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/pet_keiyaku/) <-- check out this one first lol

Some others that might interest you:
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/love_prism/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kyoushitsu_no_yugami/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/rakuen_no_ori/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kobi_no_kyoujin/

Date her

I think you should tell her the reasons she has to live, like persuading her to live. then slowly try to get her back on the right track by offering her help.

Therapy, I know she doesn't exactly like that route, based on what you've said, but seriously therapy helps a ton, it seems like she doesn't really have someone to talk to and vent about things ya know, maybe draw vent art, and maybe keep little journals to talk about her feelings. But seriously, therapy helps a lot, even though they may seem like they don't care, at the end of the day, they're humans with emotions, they will want to help her improve and get better, their goal is to see someone mentally or physically improve. They are happy to see their patients get better.

Talk to her dear... just talk about anything and everything
And dont start questions with WHY, it'll put her in a defensive side, which is a no no for suicidal pipz... dont use closed ended questions that will only be answered with yes, no or maybe
Check out her previous hobbies, example if she liked painting... get on it too... approach her that u started having interest in paints and color and let her teach u... do things together and u may possibly open up her depressed shell and let her out of there...
Hope this helps

Although, I never harmed myself, I do some dangerous thoughts (suicide) sometimes. Honestly, talking (giving comfort; "I'm here" and stuff like that) never gave me comfort. The best comfort for me was if someone shared their personal experience with me and talked to me and I talked about what I experienced. And also, try to find a new thing she can focus on or at least live for. For example, most of my main things to live for is the updates from novels and mangas I want to read as well as stationery supplies (since I love stationery). At the same time, it's not going to be something easily noticeable at her current stage because it may seem like nothing really matters. You can also take her out to have some fun, and if she isn't allowed to do that, then at least spend time with her. Whenever I was weak in the heart, just hanging out with my friends placed my mind off of the inferiority I felt living. No matter what or how insignificant it may seem, your support in ways such as being there (right there ready to let her express what she feels) is the most important. She may not have anything to hold onto for life right now so she needs something; be that. And don't let her surroundings influence her emotions too much, so no sad songs or movies or negativity. It may just push her off the brinking point. At the same time, try to build a stable emotional foundation. I use to not have a stable emotional foundation always thinking I wasn't worth the life I was given. That changed knowing I had things I wanted to live for such as novels and mangas and friends; not to mention I may even experience one of those fairytale romance if I lived long enough. Try to help her build a stable emotional foundation so that if you were never aware she was feeling suicidal, at least she wouldn't commit suicide quickly giving time to help her recuperate. Give her some limitations, like no self harm. Some people self harm themselves in order to feel better at the moment, but it's not the best method to coop with your emotions. I always told myself that those scar marks will be forever and the pain hurts. ( I really hate pain even if it was a paper cut; knowing that that pain is not just physical but also emotional stoped me) another limit is an age limit. Give her an age to die to. I said that if I don't meet someone to change my mind by the age of 50, bet my life I'm going to die a glorious death ( so I'll die at the age of 50 basically). One of the reason is by the age of 50 I fulfilled most of my wishes (first love, first kiss, skydiving, etc) Have her have something to look forward to and always be there for her. If you're the only person she told her thoughts to, she thought that you would always be there to support her. If you want to give her a helpful message, show her this. First, It's someone who faced something similar to what she's dealing with (whether she's dealing with something worst or what) and second, it shows you cared. You knew you may hurt her with your words if you weren't careful and you couldn't tell this to anyone else otherwise she might be found out even though she didn't want it to be known so you posted it where there was a least likely chance she would be found out. I hope this helped.

Therapy. She has untreated depression so of course you will be lost. At this point she needs professional help or she will get worse and kill herself.

School is going to start in just a week. Doesn't life sucks.

Thats normal, its ok to be sad knowing things arent going to be the same with everyone going their own way and growing yp.

Man I'm be a senior this August I'm not ready . I felt so weird even on last few days of junior. Idk I feel like I didnt do anything in my high school years I didn't join no spots club or anything like that. I'm a go home club. I know how u feel I don't want to grow up I just want to stay in high school with in care in the world, I really want to make my senior year great but I might move school so Idk anymore

I remember in middle school I was so excited to grow up and be mature. now life is just shit

Fuck that really sucks to read. I hope your life gets better in some ways.

Dont worry. It is normal to feel depressed when school ends. Heck I yesterday was last day at my community college and I graduated. I am transferring to a University this fall.
Today I hung out with friends the last time since I wont see them most of the time next semester. Most of them have few semester to go. It feels weird like it isn't real. I haven't process it either.....