I found this cause of the update and I thought oh cute a comedy romance! Then I read the description and tags and thought ok I should read it sounds sweet.
I was then shot 10 times in the stomach. My god its sooooooooooo ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh like its good but I felt so depressed and anxious reading it! Imma continue reading it cause its good but this story needs some trigger warnings I read drama and kinda passed it aside abit but damn it really is.
To anyone interested in reading please tw for suicidal thoughts and tendencies. Bullying. Stalking there's probably more to mention but I need to give myself a second cause it did kinda shake me a bit. Please if u wanna read it its good but please head my warning if ur sensitive like me.
Summary
Two guys are part of what i believe is an orchestra/troupe one is a muscular tall dark haired man who has a musical rival in the troupe shorter than him maybe brown hair(vibe i got from the screen tone) who turns out is engaging with the mc as friends w benefits mc is bottom whilst ml is top. With the fist chapter having the two meet in a hotel room with the ml explaining to the Mc about how to be able to perform without loosing breath with a straw trick. The main story is completed and in the shounen Ai category since they never did (if i remember right) but did do it in a oneshot. Please if u know send me it!
I found it! It's https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/iki_dekinai_no_wa_kimi_no_sei/
IM SCREAMING I LOVE THEM SOOOOO MUCH THEIR SOOOO CUTE OMGGGGGGGGGGG AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH (/TДT)/