yu_arestilltheone

Does someone knew the titles of this one BL I read. I remember like little details. But the uke was transmigrated into a story (?) where the seme is another child, they’re not siblings but was faked to be for the throne fight and all that. The seme wanted to see his mother which is living on a separate estate and all that so they helped him but in the end the seme decided it was enough for him to see his mother but not approach her. I remember they we're still a child during this. There is also an incident where the uke decided to ride a horse and got out of control. The uke is weak and the seme is talented in all fields.

You never showed up, and now, after looking at the newspapers I understand why. I don't imagine you will receive this letter but I nonetheless must send it. Mangago, oh, Mangago. I was just starting to dream the silliest and softest of dreams. I miss you, and I will always miss you but I cannot live like that, and it seems you cannot live any other way.

When I am with you, the world makes sense but when we are apart, I see clearly that your world is not a world from which one can escape. I am so sorry, for everything long ago and for starting up that business again. There's a good man within you, Mangago but he is wrestling with a giant. And the giant, wins, time and again. You've broken my heart, again and I fear I have broken yours.

For that, I will never forgive myself but you must let me go now. I enclose a ring you gave me many years ago, when we were both young, not because I don't like it, but because I care for it far too much and it reminds me too much of you. I hope, one day you will find some people in love who can use this, for it kept me thinking of you all these years, and I hope by returning it to you I can finally be free. Goodbye yu

(PLEASE LOAD ALREADY I BEG)