Some of y’all don’t understand how severely blinding suicidal thoughts can be. They convince you that you’re unloved, a burden to everyone around you, and that it would genuinely be better for everyone if you were gone. I’ve been there myself. I obviously didn’t have a kid at 14, so I don’t know how knowing you’re responsible for another life would affect things, but suicidal thoughts can genuinely make a person believe that their child would be better off without them too. It was selfish of him, sure, but he clearly wasn’t in his right mind.
And I don’t know why some of you are saying “it’s just a divorce” and that he had no reason to be upset to the degree that he attempted to take his own life. That can push someone over the edge. You can be suicidal without having to experience something life-altering. Could he have done better for his son and himself since the divorce? Absolutely. But don’t put all the fucking blame on him when he was the one cheated on, and his own mother refused to even help him. I’m not saying he’s innocent, but he’s not a monster. He has his brother helping him now, and he’s clearly working on himself.
Agreed. He clearly suffers from depression. I saw hints of it in earlier flashbacks (both his mom's and his brother's). You can't judge someone with that level of depression, especially with the suicidal ideation, like someone without. Like you said, it messes with your mind and makes you firmly believe the people you love will be better off without you.
Also, the fact that he clearly regrets how much he's hurt Minho, and acknowledged that his choices traumatized his son are strong indicators that he does truly love Minho. He just thinks he's the problem, that Minho would be better off without him. When in reality Minho needs him, and him not being around, not being stable, etc is damaging to Minho.
I think that whole family needs therapy. ML, his brother (who probably needs antidepressants), his mom, and Minho (dad is no where near ready for therapy, he needs a strong dose of reality first). FL also could use some therapy but she's clearly done a lot of work on herself already.
Anyways, those are my thoughts. They seemed to align with yours so I shared them here.
Exactly. He’s clearly been struggling since the divorce and his actions can’t be judged as someone with an 100% clear mind. He’s not perfect, but I can’t stand it when people who clearly don’t understand how bad mental issues can be judge people/characters who are struggling.
My experiences with depression and suicidal thoughts nearly took me out several times and I do have an additional life I'm responsible for. It made me think that by existing I was harming them, and therefore my being gone would do less damage overall.
So in my experience it uses any and everything you're responsible for against you. It presents as a really twisted and dark logic that isn't rational at all. There's a reason we call it an illness.
As really sad as it is to see/read, I was actually super impressed with how the author depicted it. Both ML's older brother's depression/mental illness/attempt and Minho's PTSD. Heartwrenching but very well done.
It truly makes you blind to all the good things and the love you have in your life. It makes you feel like an unloved burden in every conceivable way. It’s hard for me to even believe that I had that mindset once, because I’ve always been lucky enough to be surrounded by loved ones. It’s just truly that deceiving, and it’s something a lot of people don’t understand.
I always love seeing good mental health representation too, even though it can hit hard. I’m glad the author didn’t make his attempt a tiny glossed-over detail about his character. It’s obvious that his struggles still deeply affect him, and the way it affected his son is very realistic too.
Also, I hope you’re doing well now
I'm doing so much better now. Still need more therapy, but trauma takes forever to deal with. Haven't been actively S in nearly 7 years now. Just passive, which is so much easier to deal with, and is just an in passing type thing.
Well written mental health representation does tend to hit hard. Some of it I can't read cause it hits an area that's not healed enough yet. But I love seeing it regardless.
Lots of dark chapters in life but done a LOT of healing so I'm doing quite well
I’m glad to hear you’re doing well!
I still have to avoid certain content that upsets me too, even though I’ve thankfully been doing great for years now. I can’t listen to sad music or read/watch a lot of sad content or I’ll drift to a bad place, but I’m able to pull myself out of it now. It’s worth it though to see good mental health representation being shown in media more.
Yujin, baby, fucking RUN, I don’t i feel good about this
I’m scared this is gonna end up being like a Roses and Champagne type of chasing arc
same!! I can smell the craziness from here, Aaron is like two seconds way from shooting my baby Yujin down
literally!! like I’m terrified for our boy
too many of my favs have come to end recently, give my heart a BREAK
I’m SO glad Jaeha wasn’t given the mercy of a quick death, he deserved to suffer.
I need to see a long side story of my babies being happy and stress-free
I assumed this was gonna be a stereotypical, no-one-communicates love story based on the cover photo, but holy fuck this was one of the most beautiful love stories I’ve EVER read