God i wish divorced was fucking legal here, i want my parents to get one bc my dad a cheating asshole and my mom keeps forgiving him and when he act suspicious they would always fight infront of the table, just ruins my day. Then they take their anger both on me saying bc of my shitty mental health they're having so many problems, that i should go just be happy and grateful bc ppl think they're bad parents and oh look at my brother he's good child then also say some shit to me like they wanted a fucking daughter over a useless son like me bc then it'd be reasonable for me to behave like this and all my traumas make sense esp the raped trauma one bc apparently as a boy it doesn't make sense.
God i wish divorced was fucking legal here, i want my parents to get one bc my dad a cheating asshole and my mom keeps forgiving him and when he act suspicious they would always fight infront of the table, just ruins my day. Then they take their anger both on me saying bc of my shitty mental health they're having so many problems, that i should go just be happy and grateful bc ppl think they're bad parents and oh look at my brother he's good child then also say some shit to me like they wanted a fucking daughter over a useless son like me bc then it'd be reasonable for me to behave like this and all my traumas make sense esp the raped trauma one bc apparently as a boy it doesn't make sense.
he's a well liked person and he's kind and everything deep down i knew but he's so depressed it ruined me and put everything on my shoulders. He was suicidal.
He made my friends hate me and acted the victim during our fight cus i slapped him when i slapped him cause he told me the most hurtful shit ever "my ex's dick is better than yours" and i only wanted to yell at him but i was so upset because he knows how much i disliked him bringing up his ex every single fucking time hes with me.
He snooped on my private dms and argued with someone on it. I was never trusted by that person again. i had nobody to talk to for awhile. he did so many shit to me but i had to forgive and forgive and forgive because hes depressed. hes suicidal.
his friends still like him so im just overreacting. i cant open this up to fucking anyome who knows him because hes "this angel" but hes treated me so badly emotionally it made me want to kms multiple times. i had to understand and understand him, listen to his vents, rants and everything but i was never allowed to say i dont like how trash he treats me the fucking replacement for his trashy ex.
did watched hyperventilation
did song lyrics stuck in head
