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Help me find this please i'm dying

I read this years ago maybe 2021?? But anw I hope you can help me find it. I vaguely remember how it started so pls bare w me.

- uke has a lighter hair, and is born from a wealthy family. While seme has a dark hair, lives off of having sex with women for money.

- uke is a little younger than seme afaik. And one time uke saw seme doing the deed with a woman and runs away, seme saw him and tried to stop him but he can't. Which caused a big misunderstanding between then after that they stopped talking to each other.

- a fire occured at seme's place causing the death of his family members, then seme disappeared. Uke hears abt it but people said seme and his family we're all dead, but uke didn't believe it and searched for seme.

- later then uke eventually found him through a book that seme wrote but seme uses a different name, his mother's name who died during the fire. They drink and had sex.

- morning came and uke express his feeling for seme but seme rejected bc of a woman whom he is indebted into. Bc the woman saved him and gave him another opportunity to live. Uke then leaves crying but seme ran after him, leaving the woman behind who helped him with a goodbye and gratitude for all she's done for him but can't return her feelings bc he loves uke.

It was a happy ending for both of them but I can still remember the pain it caused me, the cover had this light green color with them on the cover. Please help me I wanna read it again. TT

I can only remember the ending, pls bare w me. Ok so it goes like this, the uke have been searching for seme for years after a fire incident that caused seme's family to be ruined. Which made people think he's dead but uke didn't give up an kept searching for seme desperately, until he did found him...under a different name. Seme was an author and his name was his mother's name?? after the uke found seme, they decided to drink tgt and had sexual intercourse, after that uke ask seme if he would like to be tgt with him but seme rejected him. I remember it having a happy ending for both of them but there's a woman between them that liked the seme but seme rejected her and chased after the uke. I also remember the cover having light green color and the name ends with "title (author's name)" help me pls, it's a sad one btw TYIA