OMG HAS ANYONE READ THE NEWEST CHAPTER NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE
SPOILER
Haejae took revenge on tampon because of what Tampon did to Garam. When Garam found out, he asked, "Why didn't you tell me? Why did you do that?" Haejae replied, "Tampon bullied and hurt you in front of everyone, and for a while, you asked me not to do anything, so I kept quiet. I didn't blame you when I was taking revenge. Did you start caring about that kid just because you worked with him?" Garam said, "Because we were both hurt because of you." They were having dinner and then Garam left. That evening, Haejae came to the hotel to look for Garam and found him crying under the sheets. Then Haejae took off his clothes and lay down next to him. Garam was listening to Haejae on the phone; he took one of her headphones and they listened together. Garam said that Haejae didn't care about him as much as he cared about his music, and asked if he wanted him to leave and demanded an apology. Haejae said, "Why should I apologize? I'm doing all of this for you." YIKES



Can yall give me the spoiler of chapter 205? Idk why haejae did that at the end
Spoiler(pls, I am dying to give it)
So, after 204, Garam stopped talking to HJ (silent treatment), they meet with that woman (HJ's teacher). Garam talked with her, and she kind of guessed that hj did something and that they had a fight- yet she said, "I don't see hatred on your face but sadness and disappointment. You still believe in him, dont you?" and that hj changed a lot, Garam confessed to her that even though HJ changed a lot, he still wanted more than that. it went on, and they went for a walk where the teacher asked HJ if he knew about Orpheus and why he lost Eurydice once again. Hj said "yeah, because he didnt listen and looked back" to which she said "why do you think he did that, when he loved so much so to step on hell for her- just bcz he broke that one promise, he lost here- why do you think so- it wasnt hard to not look back to save her, rather- it was easy to give in to the urge of looking back. It means its much harder to go against oneself than to love someone- so, HJ- if your feelings are truly sincere, you must try harder. Even if you are a blade, to change yourself -just stopping/dulling it isnt enough," to which Heejae said, "I'll have to break the blade". it went on concert day- Han was still giving him the silent treatment; finally, during his performance, hj (ofc) gave best performance. his monologues were: -"What did I do that was so wrong? To make you defy me? I've lived like this my entire life.
You know what kind of person I am, don't you? So was what I did really something worth getting this angry over? Words can be dressed up however you like. Whether they're lies or sincere.
But music isn't like that. Because it contains the soul. And you're a musician—you can feel it, can't you?! You can read my soul in my music. You can understand me without me explaining anything! That's why you stayed by my side. That was enough for you.
So why, all of a sudden, do you want me to become human?"
Right after the performance ended, hj didn't stop- he played Chopin Ballad 4, while his knife was finally stripping away- the same one which cut Garam. He was going against himself bcz, he doesn't want to lose his Eurydice.
SPOILER
for Heejae to confess not only his love but also his apology the only way he knows in front of an audience?????!!!!??????!
i still wonder if it will be enough for Garam… can‘t wait for next week‘s chapter!!! BDK put their whole authorussy into this season in particular!!
I am half dead at this point; my eyes are swollen. Please- I don't know how I will endure another week!!!!!!