That's so callous. Push your own son down the stairs, don't even check to see if he's still fucking breathing, and immediately loot the body. I hope the ML makes him suffer horribly.
Why did that have me crying with Jeonsu??? My boy lost his bestie
Wellll, I didn't like that. It's feeling very coercive :/ I know authors love to have their ukes saying no all of the time for some reason and in this context it feels even worse. The power dynamic between them makes it feel even worse. And then him using his mouth because he can't deal with it inside him anymore feels even worse. Maybe the translation was bad and the real dialogue makes it less icky feeling? idk
Dude the blowjob being the lesser of two evils was so ick.
Yeah, the whole scenes vibes were very bad for me. Again, maybe it’s the translation but I do not like this relationship. :/
omg srsly, I agree
We're finally back!! I have been WAITING on this bl. The time thief calling in the middle of everything was hilarious. So excited this is back! Thanks for posting!
I don't understand the hate Jiho gets. Can we all just think about his character a little bit? He was abandoned by his parents to live with his grandparents. And then he has to live with the same dad who got rid of him and a stepmother who doesn't try to hide her distaste for him at all. Like come on, put two and two together.
This boy learned early on that he is disposable and love isn't a thing freely given. He probably thinks he isn't lovable and is at fault for not being enough for his parents, so he's gotta do what he can to keep the interest/'love' of the twins. Which means he's always going to be down for sex, even if he's not into it; he's going to do whatever they want because he wants to be kept. He wants someone to keep him/love him, so he's gonna be passive and not a problem and let himself be used.
My boy is doing the best he can with what he's got. And he's even slowly healing himself and finally standing up for himself and feeling secure enough to voice an opinion. Stop hating on my boy-- he is trying his best!
broo LITERALLY!!
Tbh he's pretty self aware compared to the average mc. He doesn't really act on that self awareness tho
Yeah but being self aware is not the same thing as knowing what to do about it. He doesn’t have the tools to help himself and probably doesn’t even know where to start.
He's not in an ideal situation but he's not in the worse situation either. It's clear that he's become emotionally dependent on the twins and it's convenient for him to live rent free (well money wise) with them, but he also recognizes that this whole situationship is precarious and dragging it out will only hurt him more in the end. I think he could move out on his own if he wanted, ofc it's not going to be easy work, but the hug and crying in the latest chapter proves that despite being self aware of being "used" by the twins, he continues staying with them bc it gives him emotional fulfillment he doesn't get anywhere else.
His relationship with the twins isn't severe enough to be called abusive, but there is definitely a degree of toxicity that I feel like it would be healthier if he would just move out, and he probably knows that too but he's hesitant for the same reasons that a lot of victims in toxic/abusive relationships don't wanna move out... I'm speaking too early because I'm pretty sure the "running away" arc is coming soon. I also made the comment bc I do like really like Jiho and his surprising self awareness, it's honestly refreshing to see such character depth despite the plot being ass in other ways
Ooh 100% yes. It is very refreshing, and his whole situation is so heartbreaking, and I just don't understand why people hate on him for it.
And you are right. It's not a good situation, but it's not horrible. It's not the awful home he has to exist in with his parents, who do not love him or even tolerate his presence without making him suffer for existing around them. So, of course, he's gonna choose to live with the twins who seem to actually like him. Even if he has to trade sex for their interest/'love', it is a better situation all around for him. If he moved out, then he would truly be all alone and that would be even worse because it would just be more proof that he is unlovable and disposable. It's a lot, and I hope the author actually plans to give Jiho some healing time instead of just running back to the twins because he's sad and lonely if he does eventually have a running away arc.
And since we're already chatting about this, I'm gonna add my other two cents lol. I know a lot of people are saying he should ditch the twins and get with his sunbae instead, but I don't agree with that at all. That guy has shown zero interest in Jiho himself and only really talks about the twins. Even at the funeral, when Jiho was trying to open up to him and talk about his situation, he ran off to get a jacket for him instead of letting the boy talk. I'm not saying the twins are good for him, but that sunbae is definitely not either.
Idc about the sunbae, he is blander than unseasoned chicken. the worst thing you can be in a story is boring
I don't think that's the case. Sure he has stuff with his childhood. But he entered this arrangement with a clear mentality that he will not fall in love, rather he will "them". That's why it is so puzzling. We don't really see him starving for love. He is just there. Whatever the mls do, he just accepts. It has been like that since the beginning of the relationship when there was limited connection between them. We really don't see the "I'm not lovable" mentality at all. Not even once except on this present grandma's death chapter. Although we praise him for a strong emotional maturity for preventing himself from falling in too deep in love, a stance he maintained since the beginning of the arrangement, he really gives leniency or rather he just shrugs the abuse and assaults from the twins. He doesn't even take it as "oh they just assaulted me" or even something as simple as "they didn't do what i said". as soon as it starts to feel good, he goes from "stop" to just letting them finish and then just blank again. The story does not dive into deep emotional state of the characters, it's all just surface level to provide shock value of the scenes. He is not reacting at all. That's why he is bland.
You're right, I'm definitely taking liberties with my interpretation. But I wouldn't say there is no evidence of Jiho starving for love or feeling like he is unlovable. I think it's really apparent in the dinner he has with his family, and then later when he sits alone in a dark house, and every interaction he has with his family, really-- that he is starving for love. And I think his relationship with the twins proves that as well. And you're right that he never explicitly says anything, but it can be inferred from the story that he feels that way. But again, that's just my interpretation of it.
And I am so excited to talk about this with you, so sorry if it gets long. It's just hard to talk about characters and plot and do fun critical thinking about the media we're all enjoying when it's yaoi lol, but it's very fun to do!
First, Jiho is presented as very solitary. He "doesn't like people who don't take love/relationships seriously". Which means he's very selective in who he lets into his life. I assume, since he doesn't have many, if any, actual friends, that he keeps to himself. Which means he doesn't do a lot of socializing or letting himself be known or vulnerable. And the only time we see Jiho actually opening up and talking about anything going on in his head or in his life is about his Grandma. This means to me that everything he's thinking/feeling/going through is being processed in his head.
I agree that he's very complicit in what is done to him. And he went into the relationship on his own two feet both times. When he initially starts things with one of the twins, I think he's just being young and horny, and it's fun. Plus, it's all new and not something he's done before. And then he starts actually liking the guy he's messing around with, so he gets his feelings involved. And because he likes the sunbae, he starts opening up about his situation and being vulnerable (the conversation on the bench), which leads to sex. Jiho's feelings are involved; he lives in his head, so it's not like hugely obvious, but the fact that he opened up is a big indicator to me. And sex is also happening and that usually means serious stuff/serious feelings (this especially for those new to sex and relationships)-- it's more than handjobs in the bathroom stall.
Then when he finds out they were sharing him (which is too nice a term for it, so let's call it what it was: they were taking turns raping him as he didn't consent to being shared at all) and it freaks him the fuck out because, of course, it does. He was betrayed, used, and raped. This would normally end a relationship. People who are getting love and care and connection from family & friends would generally end it when they are betrayed like that. But Jiho opened up, he got his feelings involved, and it felt like those feelings were reciprocated in some small way. He finally had someone outside of his grandma who liked him and gave a damn about him. Even if it was all just for sex, someone wants him.
So despite all that, he goes back to them and tells them that he's going to use them. He talks a big game but ultimately just keeps letting his body get used by the twins. I'm not saying he doesn't enjoy the sex, but I think he doesn't care about the sex at all. He's there for the warmth and human connection the twins give him that he gets nowhere else. And he knows they only want him for sex, so he's trying not to get his feelings involved; he just wants to be around people who like him and are not actively hostile like his fucking stepmother is.
Which is why he moves in with them and continues to have sex with them because that's how he's useful to them, and if he wants to be kept/continue the relationship, then he needs to be down for all the sex and kinky shit they want to do to him.
But I agree the author is not doing a good job of showing Jiho's thoughts or feelings on the matter. I think he comes off as very flat and passive because the author is relying too much on things being unspoken and the art speaking for what's happening in Jiho's head instead. I'm not trying to put down the artist, but it just is what it is. And again, this is just my interpretation, so it really could be surface-level slop being fed to us for shock value so we keep coming back for more, but I find Jiho to be overhated for the kind of character he is.
Always updating with the shortest chapters ever Did he even have to be an undercover cop? Seems like an afterthought on the authors part. Doesn’t seem to factor into the story at all lol
Bruh this ML has his man figured out. Handing him a wad of cash to keep him occupied and distracted while he takes care of business hilarious. This is such a good bl.
I love jealous idiots. Him honking every time someone gets close to his boy? Peak jealous behavior and I am so down for it. Yoemin my adorable son is trying his best to seduce the man.
Finally my boy is putting his fucking foot down! Woo!!
I hate this ML so much. He better fucking grovel. Making this boy get out of the car naked and bare footed while having just been fucked and then having him walk barefoot and basically naked into the cage— this ML needs to suffer.