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Can someone one recommend me a manhwa with heavy angst straight or bl

https://mangadex.org/title/18878c4e-65f0-40b8-9e58-2d647f16d485/melanco-killing see they literally have it on mangadex, but theres nothing here and how i am suppose to be kept up to date if its not here?? i would upload it myself but i dont want to do that to myself..

Does anyone know other plot like this I want the mc to be suicidal and the ml regretting their action towards the mc.
Please I need some hard core angst