Yawn's Things

I have this issue that keeps going on with me, I want to be religious but I cant no matter how hard I try, I dont want to stop being "religious" but I dont feel anything towards it. I feel like I'm doing something wrong like I feel so guilty for not being able to feel anything, and society and the community is so cruel i dont know what to do anymore. Its not like i wanna leave but i dont feel anything, its been like this since I was young does anyone have any advice for what to do??