Still stressed the fuck outta me on a reread. 10/10. They don't write BL manhwas like this anymore.
I love to think that it's either dohun's perspective lowkey insinuates seongmin is hot af or during yuwon's pov everyone and their mothers are all 4s (with sole exception of dohun, of course)
Somebody haul heejae's crumbling cock and balls over! things are not looking optimistic for his geriatric ass!!!
We got mokyeon's dick's pov in infrared, x-ray, colonoscopy camera, metal detector, radiowave and imax.
Ui representing the woke groomer community (go get gramps!)
Seokjun: you get a pussy, and you get a bussy. ERRBODYYY GETS A PUSSYYY!!!
oil those knees heejae coz you better run the distance before you croak( that's not much time either) and apologize to Garam.
Mokyeon please come back to your old asshole ways im so serious you are steadily losing aura points stop the whining!!!
Dohun is an insane motherfucker but goshdarn it's a miracle he is just *this* unhinged despite his circumstances.
I heavily could relate to Garam in a way that I cannot imagine myself doing anything else.
Maybe it has been an amalgamation of what people and strangers expected me to do during my formative years or it was a passing afterthought to soothe a middle-schooler's delusion of hitting it to the big leagues. Probably it was an ego thing? Thinking I am a gift to the world and an untapped genius? Goodness, who knows? I don't! All I know is that when life is getting me through the fucking wringer, it's painting and drawing like a pocket of air I trudge my limping self forward to. But its also the rusty metal pipe hitting me behind the head in a dark alleyway.
Unsure of who am I anymore as an artist and as a human being. Maybe that is the point. I haven't properly look at myself yet because acknowledging that I have been tampered from my self-imposed expectations is a terrifying conclusion to come at. And that's all there is to it, an expectation. I have deep respect for the arts as it rewards those who are willing to comb through and welcomes it with the spot to ponder and feel---I hope to find myself there, too.
As somebody with no prior connections who chose this godforsaken journey with much enthusiasm, everyday felt like my balls were stomped and caved in with thousand forceful dwarves tldr it sucks balllssss. But much like Garam, it's a reminder that it will be a thorny road of self-reflection up ahead. It will hurt, but man it is so fucking worth it.
Brb going to re-read Double by Ayako Noda because why stop with one codependent toxic couple obsessed with their respective chosen craft if i can have two?
I would like to officially submit my apology form to the author I'm sorry I doubted you. FELLOW DEGENERATES WE'RE FINALLY GOING TO WITNESS CHANI SUCKING SUKJUN DRY DREAMS DO COME TRUE
So we just have to bulldoze through all the tropes I have to squeal about?
WHERE IS SUCKJUN'S DICK? HE CAN'T SEE WITHOUT HIS DICK!
If chani's going to be a slut, he will be suckjun's slut!