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im on chap 21 and its the first time i've cried over rape,like im not a weak person and i sometimes like those parts but just seeing the mc being helpless made me feel sick and i just started crying and now i just hate myself for ever finding those stuff ''hot or whatever''
real! i think the first time i cried over the scenes was non zero sum and this was the second..
"Like i am not a weak person..." our world got so filled by desensitization of cruelty by jokes and porn of it that crying to rape is seem as weak now... you aint weak, you are normal. I honestly wish I could cry about this, instead of reading it like a morning newspaper due to being exposed to heavy porn from a young age tanking my sensibility to serious stuff.
There is nothing hot about rape, we are conditioned to see rape as a subcategory of sex instead of a subcategory of violence and that is why we see it as hot many times. It is by design painted like that and I include myself in that too, cause I also read non con stuff and my brain finds it hot. I didnt cry or feel bad reading this, but I wish I did.
Girl, you aren't weak,you’re just normal. I can totally relate cause whenever I read stories with non-con, I end up crying too and i love to torture myself emotionally so i just keep reading. Rape isn't something you're supposed to find hot or enjoyable.
I get why you feel weak, tho. It happens when you've been continuously surrounded by media that romanticizes or eroticizes rape for so long,
I agree with u a lot since i myself tarted reading and watching porn at 10
Ugh it desensitized me so badly, twin. We shouldn't have been given access to that shit
Im still waiting for the next chapterლ(´ڡ`ლ)