I love this. I relate so much with Bom and I feel her life could be mine if was born with privilege.
There's something so sinister about poverty and the fear of it. When I was younger I didn't really want to achieve anything, I felt drawn to no one and desired nothing, my mother's opinions about me ruled my reality and I had so much self hatred that I constantly looked for love anywhere, despite not wanting it at the same time. I'm a bit older now, an adult, life is filled with so much uncertainty and chaos that I've grown apathetic. In every stage of life I get to I always dream of leaving despite just being at the entrance. Apathy and numbness, despite the ongoing chaos in my life, that's what I usually feel. And just like bom the one of the few times I felt alive was when I was with my childhood crush (which is very silly) but it made me aware of the fact that I am capable of this feelings but it leaves an ache in my heart that I haven't felt that way in ages.
I have goals now, I'm trying to pursue everything and anything to get accolades from my peers, to get admiration from everyone and to be able to simply run away whenever I want. However, that numbness and apathy is still there.
I'm about to embark on another stage of life and I'm so frightened, I sincerely hope everything goes well. I can't wait for more chapters








Okay everyone, let me sum it up....I don't know how what to feel about this.
Mr Shin is clearly indulging the FL for nefarious reasons and it's insaneeee. Also, I don't know how I inferred this opinion, but...I don't think Mr Shin actually loves his wife and I don't think he's obsessed with her in the typical way it's usually portrayed, I think he wants to possess her body and why do I think he enjoys his life as it is: Sleeping with women (I don't know if he has actually cheated don't quote me ); being perceived as a devoted husband; not being wickedly cheated on ; plus being admired and respected by everyone even the FL
I just want to also say that I'm so sorry but there's nothing Bido can do that'll make me hate her. I think being desperate to experience love in whatever form it comes is a valid excuse for everything.