eclipsias

SPOILERS

i can't help but agree with you. words fail to capture the genius of jinsol's intricate character. he's someone who's constantly had to self reflect, (re)consider and rearrange his thoughts and words accordingly, doubt the credibility of his existence and keep it well hidden. he's had to swallow his emotions and enter a state of neverending pretense inside an unforgiving society which denied his very being. not only did his familial environment which once, from the eyes of a child, consisted his world fail him, but the vaster world as well. the burden is insufferably heavy. the discord under the guise of a functional society he's been made to suffer in harshly taught him to be well spoken and mysterious at the cost of surviving.

yet despite his traumatic childhood and painful lifestyle he remained considerate of others. he was aware of what it meant to carelessly dump his fate onto just any stranger. his overly complex way of thought, which lead him to a long and tedious (emotionally and physically) journey of deceiving saegye, is the embodiment of his struggle of growing up as a false. and his plan backfired in the end cus he was influenced. he started developing feelings for saegye and doubting himself. cus what he desired in the end is validation, acceptance, dedication, liberation, 'a world which was okay to live in despite being meaningless'.

how can i disagree with you? as if the first read-through wasn't mind-blowing enough, it only gets better from then on. i've noticed many details, it's been so difficult keeping this to myself. i want to cherish and gatekeep it, however it's deservant of so much recognition.

i'd listen to 3 instrumentals: Finder by Franco Albertini, Falling Flower by Seventeen (instrumental & slowed, lowered pitch), and Kuyamu to kaite mirai by Mafumafu (instrumental ver.).