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that this is really gonna be green flag story. But the beginning of the story pisses me off so much though. I just started it.
Like why the fuck is she being apologetic and made to take responsibility for having drunk sex with him? She was tired, emotionally distressed and drunk. Dude made the first move and kissed her. Proceeded to take her to an expensive hotel and they had sex. Not many words were exchanged between them during that night it seems, according to his monologue. Why the fuck is she apologising? That is just. normal one night stand. Two adults were drunk and had sex. The one who should apologise or feel a bit more guilty is he, who made a move on a drunk, tired, emotionally low woman. He should have been the rational one to balance it out, but let his desires guide him and took the chance to fuck the woman he felt attracted to while her guard was down and her rationality out the window as she was welcoming a chance to forget reality any way possible be it alcohol or sex. She seems like she wants to forget that night and what she did with him. As in, she feels regretful. While he alone obsesses over it.
But she is made to feel guilty? Made to apologise? Made to grovel? And has to take his idiotic behaviour as a price?
Why the fuck does she have to even bother thinking about why he decided on his own as a grown man to do whatever he wants with his own time and emotions and invest them into finding and pining after her all on his own?
What the fuck is this?
I really hope to see all the green flag stuff everyone is talking about. But like, right now all I feel is annoyance and frustration.