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How the fuck are you guys reading and processing writing????
For those who seem to conveniently look over important key details of this story, let me recap you, so you understand why Philomels actions are the only ones that make sense:
She was treated like trash by her father until she was 9 in this life. she was so neglected that she had servants who were beating her as "education" and not taking care of her like they should for a royal heir. they were ridiculing her in her own palace, so much so she could hear them. lazing around and stealing from her.
for 9 whole years her father gave no shits so things became like this. he talked shit about her left and right and infront of people. he called her "a thing" and looked at her like she was a roach all this time. she had to heavily mask and act insanely mature and become a whole other person and butter her way up to this mojo to slowly show a bit less hatred towards her and warm up to her. with time he got used to her, cause she literally made her life revolve around him, so how could he not?
only with her fiancé she did not have to act to much and just spent their time together doing all the work she needed to do to be able to be in good regards of the emperor and be accepted by people.
look how frivolous, childish and immature eluncia acts now that she is a princess since a handful of weeks. she is dragging her around barging into an emperors room screaming "dad" as she pleases and demanding to play games or make a former crown princess her handmaid without batting an eye. nobody is doing anything about it. the dude ain't hating her or ever being in any way harsh to her nor is anyone else. and she is 16. still a teen. BUTTTT.......
When philomela was a literal CHILD people were treating her like trash because she was BEING A CHILD and didn't act enough like an ADULT at 9. the emperor was talking smack about her so much so he did that one time where she heard him talk so harsh on purpose KNOWING (as we know now) she was hearing him through the open door. Talking about how she ain't maturing or able to do shit. and how he wants her do live like a dead rat and just fulfil her duties as an heir properly, be mature and even come close to the excellence he showed as a child (who experienced hell as it seems and still dude has no sympathy for a kid in a situation similar to his, that he created for no reason)
so please. like how do people read??. like how do you guys read????? This is called cognitive dissonance you know. And I do not understand why you would chose to go through cognitive dissonance not for a real life distressing situation but for a mere fantasy story. ლ(´ڡ`ლ)
I hope you ain't like this in real life. just cause someone is handsome and begs a bit and looks pitiful, you tell the victim they should reconsider and are being to harsh or something....dafuqqqqq....trauma ain;t a joke. especially as a kid. and the author did not even portray that authentically in her story enough.....just a little bit with how she fainted from extreme stress when she saw emperor come to get her and was sick for a few days and said all that stuff to his face throwing all those words that haunt her since she was 9 and ruled over her entire life since then back at him....
other notes: dude never hugged her, never kissed her, never showed any real obvious affection to her, never told her he loved her. he just got used to her presence and was comfortable with her and was looking for her when not around. a bit more intimate a relationship than he has to his aide. that is how their relationship was. kay we saw some scenes (she knows nothing about) where he was jealous when she had danced with her fiancé at debutant or what. or him picking her up when it was convenient. but that is all. look how shook she was when eluncia came and kissed this dude on the cheek. something she never even imagined doing to him, cause he is so cold and scary....even when she hugged him by accident when she was happy for getting the ring or what was it? she drew back instantly and looked at him to see if she pissed him off....that is their relationship. she never got any proper sign from him (cause he never expressed himself!!! it is on him!!!!) that he cares for her. she thought that she was successful in being someone he is happy with to inherit his throne and that is useful to him and not to bothersome to be around and that is why he rewards her with gifts etc. cause he royal and she his heir so that is custom for royals and shi. that is all this ever was. as that is all it ever seemed. to which is why she thought he wants to look for her cause he wants her dead. (it was not just cause of the book, she thought she did it all perfect so he may not look for her, then he did and she thought fuck he must still want me dead after all. nobody who thinks they are being loved thinks this way okay)
phew. I just binged this now that it marinated enough from the beginning again with better quality translations, and felt all that empathy again. then I read these bullshit comments....couldn;t keep this in....adios (〜￣△￣)〜