I've had goosebumps since that one scene where he pretend the jump with just one thought: I finished my work. I can finally die.
It feels so profound in how ordinary it is. Most people go to sleep because they're tired. But that two lines represent just how exhausted beyond simply overworked (he WAS overworked) and mentally drained he was. There's, tbh, no excuse to his past behaviors. He's just your ordinary young adult that made one two many bad decisions many of us did or are doing, but his family did not deserve what they received. And as a reader, I always remember this fact because it makes this moment even more impactful.
It's gorgeous, the way he tried to console him. It's not really romantic, he admits his suicidal tendencies, his past mistakes. He doesn't try to excuse what he did. And that life is exhausting and still unrewarding, people's lost don't come back.
As if he told him, "But if you have even an inch of love for me then please don't die. Let me show I can do things for you AND not lose myself. That this is a fight WE can fight."
I've had goosebumps since that one scene where he pretend the jump with just one thought: I finished my work. I can finally die.
It feels so profound in how ordinary it is. Most people go to sleep because they're tired. But that two lines represent just how exhausted beyond simply overworked (he WAS overworked) and mentally drained he was. There's, tbh, no excuse to his past behaviors. He's just your ordinary young adult that made one two many bad decisions many of us did or are doing, but his family did not deserve what they received. And as a reader, I always remember this fact because it makes this moment even more impactful.
It's gorgeous, the way he tried to console him. It's not really romantic, he admits his suicidal tendencies, his past mistakes. He doesn't try to excuse what he did. And that life is exhausting and still unrewarding, people's lost don't come back.
As if he told him, "But if you have even an inch of love for me then please don't die. Let me show I can do things for you AND not lose myself. That this is a fight WE can fight."