thank god extras exist (thank you uploader) because everytime i see an update i read the whole thing again and it's amazing
gjord is such a disgusting person im sorry i mean i knew he was insane from the start... but isn't this too out of character? like asking sylhan if he voluntarily or involuntarily slept with lester or anyone else for that matter when he clearly knew the situation sylhan was in?? he was at the mercy of lester and lisbeth (?), abused, almost raped and gjord has the audacity to nonchalantly ask him DiD AnYoNe CrAwL in YoUR WaRmTh???? and when sylhan goy furious, he brushed out off as petty jealousy ugh... like that's so disgusting oh my god as if he wasn't the one absent most of the time (and let's say it's to get sylhan out or maybe some other greater grander plan), but that also means you don't get to ask him that. the least you could've done is comfort him, say nothing and just hold him to sleep but oh well :)
this fucking bitch of a brother HIT HIM WHERE IT HURTS HIT HIS PEEPEE
nicholas is such a good friend :") im glad ian had someone like him by his side
what....the fuck...... THAT'S how you make a person realise they're gay? by raping them????? wow :|
he doesn't deserve to be a teacher fucking hell im seething like you could've handled that situation in a mature way but you decide to traumatise a student for life (thank god hikage got his closure though). i assume the teacher had an abusive family, but that's not an excuse to be so mean and cruel to anyone else. especially your students who look up to you.
idk incest always gives me such an ick and more so when authors make it between "step" siblings. i feel like it often tries to portray that it's okay since yk "not blood related" and im sorry but that's just such a weird thought. it completely dismisses that adopted or not, they are family, they have been RAISED together. you've seen each other as FAMILY. how on earth can you...... idk man.....
im dying I LOVE THIS DYNAMIC SO MUCH I LOVE LOSER CRYBABY TOPS GIVE ME MORE RAAAHHHHHHH (on another note, they remind me of phainon and mydei so much sjksdkskjs)
im crying omg ik maybe im overreacting but this feels too real because ive been hiding my whole life (until recently), and then i read this here and it just hit me. you get so used to hiding and internalising that you're not normal until you realise that you've been forced to think that, forced into hiding who you are, who you love while everyone else, the "normal" people, gets to talk about their oh so Better Love. im sorry but seeing yeoreum like this hurts me so bad im sorry ill see myself out
also!! i will never forget when etienne was talking to celodine in the carriage, "you said you didn't want to get involved in politics, but that is impossible as long as you have an opinion and must coexist with others. after all, expressing your disinterest in politics is political in an of itself." makes me wonder about a lot of things
leona has such an obsession over etienne my god..... but i like how the author brought in the question of control, that even though omegas were BELIEVED to be in control, didn't mean it really was the case. it was like an illusion, while on reality the alphas controlled everything. but ofc, it doesn't excuse whatever bullshit she's doing. both her and the emperor failed as parents, and i feel so sad for etienne to never know what parental love feels like :( well at least the emperor is doing smth in the later chapters. also i feel like, because of his upbringing, etienne keeps pushing rishar away, knowing that he's the only one standing by his side aaaaa ALSO I HAVE COME TO REALLY LIKE ANTOINE he's so cute :3
these ai translations are ruining this space omg like STOP NO ONE WANTS THESE SLOP... earlier when people used to volunteer in translating, they really loved the work to put their time and effort in translating, cleaning, typesetting etc. these days, with ai coming, these so called scan groups don't even care about the works they take up, but ON TOP OF THAT THEY WANT TO MAKE MONEY FROM IT LIKE???? if we wanted to pay we would pay in official sites????? WHY THE FUCK WOULD I PAY FOR YOUR AI SLOP IN YOUR SHITTY WEBSITES. it's so horrible to see how things are now, and these groups don't even care about anything :/
oh my god. im still reeling from rereading all that again. i think i love mr umejima the most, along with hanasaki :") they've been such genuine, true friends and support of the two it's unbelievable. i like tatara too, but oh well not as much as those. and ofc, there's really nothing to say about shige and shin. the way they love each other is insane, and there are times i cried. and it makes me wonder, that at the end of the day they're just people who love each other, that's all but somehow the world isn't so kind :"( it makes me so sad ugh :"((((
harim is so....idk im so frustrated at him. like i understand his story, it's really hard for a teenager to be treated like that in your own house, by your own family. and it's absolutely understandable that he seeks comfort in an older figure, that figure being il. everything was fine till now. and i could still look over the fact (though with some distaste) that he liked il, you can't control what u feel. BUT you CAN CONTROL how u act. he kept on pushing il's boundaries, trying to kiss him, trying to get in the middle of their relationship and then even jerking off to him like???????? liking someone is still understandable, but acting on that KNOWING that person has a partner is just ew.
and then that older guy. can he please fuck off. like i understand u havr good intentions, but you'd also have to accept that not everyone needs your good intentions. it was okay as long u showed concern, but then he went and told everything to his wife, called leewon's parents like bro????? that pissed me off so much. like i imagined myself in leewon's position at that moment, and to think that suddenly someone else, who i don't even know that well, called my parents and now im FORCED to make a choice is insane. it gives me terrible anxiety to even think of that.
but anyway, i like how il and leewon are together. they're very well portrayed, like little lovebirds in their first serious relationship, trying to be as close as possible, getting jealous at the smallest things (but also thinking how stupid it is and acting mature), and then trying to talk, keeping quiet when it's too much. i love their dynamics so much hehe i hope there's much comfort and consolation coming in the next chapters! and id also like to see leewon's decision (it's funny how im also...stuck in a similar position....though i don't have a partner, but yeah smth like that)
NOO NOOOOOO NOOOOOOOOO i kept hoping smth supernatural pe godly will happen and now im devastated
this is so refreshing and reading the story of the lighthouse keeper and traveller made me so emotional
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i think im alive and healing again
