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As someone who has brain fog and disassociation myself this whole thing feels all to real. It feels like your costantly spinning in a dark tunnel with only random sporadic glimpes of reality. Tbh Im mostly reading the chapters because i get the feeling there's going to be a really fucked up plot twist- and they're making it confusing to understand on purpose （￣へ￣）idk tho
I first read this as a middle schooler, i liked it for its yaoi aspects and that was about it. But, it was still up there as being one of my favorites.
Now that ive re-read this as im genuinely going through a similar situation with my partner, it cuts deep. "I love him, but i hate him. I miss him, but i want to forget him." I had to screenshot a few text bubbles because they explain my emotions right now, so perfectly. The story is beautiful with great pacing, and its one of the few yaoi BL that perfectly depicts adult relationships. (Instead of the bottom clearly acting like a child, and the top being a trash human)
And yes, there is a rape scene. But for once its not randomly interjected within the story. For the sake of the story, it genuinely makes sense. The only complaints i have is there not being enough explanation for the aftermath of the other side characters. And, i also thought Ed's tattoo would be more prevalent in the story, but i guess not.