I understand that he is guilty for surviving but from his comrades view, he was a victim and not just that he was a child that was pushed to death door with them... he had barely lived his life and his only string (his best friend) died while he watched the light leave his friend's eyes and everyone understood perfectly how he would follow his friend after saving everyone. He tried to sacrifice himself for them so to save a child from that kind of death, they sacrificed themselves while leaving some duty for him to fulfill so he could not take his own life while also giving him time to heal from the trauma because all of those hobbies are exactly what mental patients need to relieve themselves. They wanted him to live, they wanted him to truly live and not just barely alive but living the life that he could not have before and it is so beautiful and heart wrenching
this is one that gets me emotional the most in the story. i mean imagine leaving a will to the youngest of your bunch something that would take his mind from ending his life hoping that your will , will somehow help him see and experience the beauty of being alive. they know he will carry the burden ( survivor's guilt ) forever but they really wanted him to live. ╥﹏╥
and their resolve that he will leave the dungeon alive too. like they know he will not die there also something you'll think about. they know he will leave the place alive. (/TДT)/
I mean he (by his memory) wasn't there when he died. But yeah, his reason for wanting to die was due to the gaps of his memory and not necessarily because being the only survivor. It's hard to explain without spoiling the actual plot twist though but let's just say if we're hurting now, we'll hurt more as we go on. Especially once they're back in the dungeon
If anyone and I mean anyone dare to fking curse or say bad thing about Hyoseop imma fking throw hand... he has suffered enough just because the manhwa shorten tf out of it and make it too fast pace don't you fking defend Andante, he will get what he deserves even if it's frustrating or annoying at some point but it is super valid for Hyoseop's action as a child going through abuse and 4 fking years isolation, he is already doing his best so anyone fking say anything I'm coming for u... no Andante glaze will be under my fking sight, I love Andante but don't fking come for Hyoseop (●'◡'●)ノ










So, The Red Witch is most likely our FL, why? Because her mom the dragon said they of the dragon bloodline can manipulate time and space. And the ML seems to be the Emperor thus making him her love one. Which then we saw her mom said to use that power to break fate and save her love one. Which explain how she manipulated space and time to that one Battle in the War and our ML couldn't find who the Red Witch was. Thus the confusion in the timeline and who was who. Damn....
I assumed the red witch might be her mom but i think you're right she probably travelled in time