choking up on my tears right now wth i hate that this is how life truly is for some people sometimes, for those that never dared to take the next step because the people around them reinforced the fact that choosing yourself is selfish.. i hope Kirino is able to experience true happiness in whatever he tries to find
the novel had so much abuse, written so explicitly and horribly like god i cried for knox.. i thought i would be happy towards the end with the mls suffering and him getting his revenge but at what cost? knox, originally was a kind man in his own, weird way but the knox towards the end is stuck in this cycle of abuse, never to return so honestly there’s no good ending for him here. i mean, sure the redemption/wife chasing arc felt momentarily satisfying but it didn’t feel like either of the mls ever loved knox but instead only possessed a weird sense of obsession for him.
khalid made knox suffer in the worst way possible and now, knox continues to make him suffer (but it doesn’t even come close to all the ways in which khalid made him suffer.) i wish knox could heal and move on with esterion but he’s far too gone for that, unfortunately.











Finally.. pee that isn’t yellow lmao happy to know the seme is well hydrated xD
He is such a freak