He probably misunderstood smth from back then and is blaming himself for events that happened to Haneul and that's why he hates himself and has low self-esteem proclaiming he doesn't deserve to be with her bc he blames himself and is hurting inside bc of the guilt he feels. Now it feels kinda relatable. I could see myself beating myself up from the inside if someone was so dear to me and I felt like it's my fault something happened to them. Kinda makes me remember how I felt when a close friend of mine took their life and I was the last person to text with them...so yeah. I get that feeling of regret and blaming oneself even if it wasn't something to feel sorry for.









What a nice dopamine kick after a week with sleeping issues. My whole day in the OR may even start with a good mood with this (but girls it's too soon for you guys to marry....maybe like...work on your communication skills before deciding to marry....?)