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it's like the most complicated communication ever though cause hes basically saying "it's gonna suck being with me but sorry cause I can't leave you" like huh that is NOT healthy lmaoo

But then again hitomi is madly in love to kamiya so he just gonna be sway by it and they just gonna be together. Pretty much impossible to separate those two when they can't let go each other ╮(￣▽￣)╭

I think it is healthy though. It's not something the ML can change and he's being upfront with his concerns, issues and how he feels the future could manifest.

He's really laying it all it out for the MC. While clearly stating his interest and love for the MC.

He’s talking about instinct vs love, which is complicated given the whole disease thing. He’s not saying that being in the relationship will suck. It will suck feeling that pull of loneliness all the time due to the instinct to procreate. The best they can do is stay together despite that. The unhealthy part is actually the way Kamiya just constantly makes up his mind about things without discussion because he believes his experience with the disease to be the only truth. Whereas we know that there is a possibility for them to have children, and that the disease is still developing because we’ve heard more from the doctor than Kamiya has.

right but the way he handles issues and his concerns gives me the ick. I feel like he never truly heard the ML's feelings out while only thinking about his own. How many times have hitomi tried comforting kamiya and he just pretty much ignores what hitomis trying to say? you could say it's kamiya being concerned for hitomi and not wanting to hurt him, but in the end it doesn't feel like he's listening anyways.

point is the way they communicate could work for them because in the end they'll feel the same and still want to be together, BUT I always sense this weird tone of miscommunication/ignorance.

Totally fair. I think the ML is depressed and was socially anxious even before his change, so combining his prior struggles engaging openly with others AND his struggles accepting his change...It's a recipe for intense therapy TBH

Kamiya had issues prior to the disease and just when he was having a pleasant connection with Hitomi, he assaulted him. He probably sees Hitomi’s love for him as pity and thinks that he’s become Hitomi’s burden. I’m not trying to say the way he’s treated Hitomi is right, but realistically these feelings don’t just go away because someone loves you.
Many manga try to depict broken characters and all of them gloss over very real issues by having love fix everything. While I’m frustrated with Kamiya, I also can’t help but feel happy that finally there’s a manga that handles mental illness with some sense of reality.