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I wish the author left the other alex alive instead of killing him off because how would mc alex feel knowing that he was basically fall back from the other alex and if the other alex was still alive Kline would have probably tried to make things work with him. I wish the author went the route of Kline and mc alex fall in love and Kline meets old alex and they just become friends or sumn. Makes me a little sad that they never really meet old alex and Kline never really addresses that he loves mc alex more(I know he kind of does in the dream but still)
My theory is that they both lost too much blood in the accident and the other alex's injuries were too severe to save him and in order to save mc alex they had to use other alex's blood for a blood transfusion. Which is why mc alex smells like other alex and why kline asked where he got other alex's blood from
Cant tell if he actually likes Nuah or just the sex anymore. He kind of just let's everything happen to him and he's fine with Banam? Like yeah banam can get it and he's zaddy but like at this point he's not even doing it bc of the curse... Rix literally just said he was fine with having sex with banam. Unless its different in the next chapters and someone can spoil me. Just feel bad for nuah honestly
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its an emotional roller coaster and extremely frustrating to watch play out. The mc's dick bag of a fiance never really loves her because he's stupidly in love with her sister who turns out to be her dads like love child that he had with some princess in another country.
the mc's mother turns out to be the maid of the princess, the actual princess can't marry her dad because she's a princess of a foreign country. the mother actually like fakes her love for the mc's sister and is actually poisoning her with a drug that crow(a guy who travels through all the mc's lives with her) tells the mc about in one of his lives.
the fiance like ends up showing more affection in the mc's final or seventh life because the people in each of the mc's lives change a little bit(something the mc discusses in one of her lives). But the mc finally like shows some character development and was like no you don't actually love me, but she says this as she's dying because she saved her sister from getting stabbed by a friend of the fiance who got close to the fiance because well its complicated; apparently the country that the princess was from has no heir and its pretty troubling for him because if Sylvia ends up claiming the throne, the throne will be taken away from his brother who has a chance of getting it.
correct me if I'm wrong, I might be wrong about the minute details.
its incredibly frustrating the mc remains attached to the fiance and doesn't try to change the future, she kinda just takes it. I guess its because he's the only one who showed affection for her when she was really long, he told her he would wait for her. ironic because he stops waiting for her and stabs her in the back by falling in love with her sister(who he knocks up in one of the mc's lives).
there really is no concrete ending because I'm pretty sure the author dropped it. it ends with crow and the mc meeting each other but it kinda just ends there, the translations end and looking at novelupdates there really isn't anything else.
Well, you warned, so people will open the comment if they want spoilers.
One thing I can't agree though is that Ilya doe try to change her situation.
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Because she is stricken with misfortune everytime, she takes careful consideration of all the consequences. Like preparing Silvia to the role of becoming Soleil's fiancee so Ilya could run away. She ends up as a prostitute. In that life she didn't rely on her knight because he once died protecting her, and she realized he had someone he cared about, a lover. Making him die again for her would be taking his life from those he was precious to. Also, the Marquis family wouldn't let her escape if there wasn't someone better suited to replace her. And since Ilya recovers memories always at the tea party, different from other reincarnation stories where mc is reborn as a baby or child and gets to rebuild their lives from scratch, be considered prodigies and whatnot, she's always tied to her life as it has been, running against time to change anything, but still, only bad endings await. Amongst all the despair, she just wanted someone to love her, and that's why she's attached to Soleil. The moment she realizes she doesn't need him to love her anymore is when her character development takes a turn and we see a glimpse of happiness or hope in the novel.











It looks like seme and uke are together but the seme is a hating over something in recent raws. Can someoen explain the situation?
seme is in love with uke, but uke loves someone other but at the same time he loves the seme too, the boy (who uke loves) is uke's childhood friend and they were sleeping with each other, and i think seme is jealous of him. so seme doesn't like the boy who is uke's childhood friend (childhood friend is who uke loves and was sleeping) (omg i told it like its so complicated)