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i love this chapter specifically because it reminds me of my first time with my ex-boyfriend. i was abused a lot during my childhood and my body has permanent repercussions from it to this day, so when the topic of sex came up with my ex and i, i avoided it like the plague. i was also afraid of truly telling him i loved him because of trauma with past relationships. sex was scary to me yes, but being honest about my feelings was even more terrifying. Shinpei did exactly what my ex did; called me beautiful and said my body is perfect just the way it is and that we didn’t have to do anything further than cuddling. he was my first love. :’)
I hope you don’t mind, but why did he become your ex? From what you mentioned, he seemed like a great person who treats you right:( I hope the person your with or your next relationship treats you even better
I'm not the one you're asking that, but i lived something similar.
For me, it was just because love, sometimes, doesn't last. Ând because, as i was abused, i was fragile and harmed by so many little thing that normally wouldn't hurt anyone but, the scar of thèse trauma were too heavy for me to be able to stand this. With traumatised person, even a perfectly nice one could be not enough. Because thé problem is in ourselves, and meltdown are a daily thing
it was partially this, but it was also my mother. i was a teenager during this time and my ex, while a great boyfriend, was a well-known delinquent and didn’t do good academically. my mom’s a hardcore asian tiger mom, so when we were found out, she forced us to break up and changed my classes so we couldn’t see each other. :’)
Ho that's so sad...
i’d let her kill me :3