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i loved it and the art is soooo yummy to me. seongah's ahegao ლ(´ڡ`ლ) I WANNA SEE THEM GET MARRIED FR THOOO

Chapter 46 resonated so much with me. I WAS Hyobin once too. In retrospect I get why his behaviour is so frustrating maybe for other readers who aren’t like this. Having been in a similar situation myself, (wouldn’t recommend it to my worst enemy) I am still to this day feeling deep regret and all, bc unlike this, which is fiction, in reality we don’t really get that happy ending and resolution.
Because most times the friendship will fall apart anyways, like it’s doomed from the start. The person you are trying to hold on to by not dating them bc u KNOW it will end up badly eventually (bc u have seen ur entire life how turbulent irl relationships are especially long distance).., they will not wait forever unfortunately. And you might not get a second chance either even after many years. The person will lose interest despite them STILL saying “you were my first crush/gay awakening”.
Despite all that I still think it wouldn’t have ended well and to this day purely bc unlike what we thought back then, our personalities didn’t match that well and it was just infatuation and codependency clouding judgement. I still believe I made the right choice bc despite having drifted apart, we still talk occasionally online despite living in different countries. Just like we did back when we were kids. So it is a bittersweet ending after all, and even though I say I have regrets and whatnot, I still stand by my choice.
Idk why I wrote all this tbh but that specific plot line really hit close to home for me. And now that I have matured and all it’s kinda funny to see how silly it all was in the first place, all this agony and regret for something inevitable… I am curious though if she ever understood my point of view at all. It doesn’t matter anyway . Back to the story, I wish I had someone like Euntak to give me advice, maybe the outcome would have been different. For better or worse, who knows. That’s the beauty and mystery of life, can’t live by the what ifs. Anyway yeah whoever reads this thank u for letting me yap.