amnesia what it's just small shards of glass and didn't even puncture his head (a scratch maybe yeah) he'll be fine guys don't worry
i get anxious every time i think about and look at Candy
this might sounds wrong coming from a comsec of this kind of webtoon, but their relationship is surprisingly healthy if you ignore all the bs abt taeman's secret job, like if it weren't for that he's not really the type to keep secrets from dahyeok and let him be confused all by himself--he tried his best to be a good partner for dahyeok despite this being his first time in a relationship. and ofc we have this ult green forest guy dahyeok who's just so wholesome and understanding and loving and caring i'm hoping for the best for them lovebirds
i just read ch 34 yesterday and now there are 2 updates.. thank you!!!
guys admit it we all saw this coming. they're both mentally unstable, so with their current state it's only natural for their relationship to break anytime soon. ofc we can hope for them to get professionals help and fix things, but it's really unnecessary to blame chan il when he literally just existed , being nothing but a good friend to both cirrus and skylar.
man i feel so bad for chan il, getting dragged into the madness of this couple
hm i would say this is very well done though? the metaphors with the fish—a pet used to satisfy us and barely remembered when died—and the fish tank, the last shot of both of them seen through the tank signifying them deluding themselves that instead of murky water they’re looking through rose-coloured lenses to cover up how filthy the relationship is. and the child, mirai whose name sounds like future in japanese, who had no future living in that dark room, who had no future relationships to look forward to, who had no past that comforted him, has now a future living with his rapist. a future of constantly tricking himself to feel that he is wanted and loved.
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- Author: Eresemo
- Genres: Webtoons / Action / Comedy / Drama / Shounen Ai
I felt so ... Undecided and unsure during the entirety of this read. On one hand, I do love the concept, I do love the art style, even the plot and I did finish this story in less than 24 hours... But I still couldn't picture myself giving it 5 stars and was even struggling with the idea of giving it 4 stars. Hmm, there's parts that I love and parts that I loathe, and nothing in-between - I suppose that's why? I'm going to try breaking down all of my thoughts, so please excuse this behemoth of a comment:
Let's discuss the most important thing that broke my heart: Siwon's situation. Siwon deserved the world and got nothing for it. What were his dreams? Who were his friends? What were his worries and insecurities before the bullying?
Jiwook aimed his resentment at Siwon because he was an easy strawman to do so, but Jiwook was the one who kept digging this impossible hole the whole time – from the very beginning. Being compared to someone else, who's seemingly so perfect, and thus be dismissed by everyone sucks. It's inherently a difficult situation to be in and to watch; what could jiwook and Siwon even do to change their circumstances? Every word said in comfort has a high risk of being a trigger word for someone who's so filled with anger and vulnerability – we see Siwon accidentally triggering Jiwook during their every interaction... Having said that, however, Siwon tried desperately to be there for jiwook and support him, until the very end; asking questions to get a better understanding of the situation, all whilst Jiwook refused to let him in even a little bit. Through all of that, Jiwook's resentment grew into a monster that was just... So preventable.
At the end, Jiwook says that he had no other choice and that he was just trying to survive... But that's not true. He had countless different choices he could've taken; he was in a privileged position in the specific sense that he had a brother who would've stayed by his side through everything, and would've supported him the whole time. Jiwook was the one who let it burn.
But still, I felt so conflicted and torn when it came to Jiwook. One chapter I'd be cursing and rolling my eyes at him, but the next I'd be struggling to feel that same anger, even if nothing had really changed. Jiwook kept being that brat who refused to take accountability, feel remorse or grow up (even for himself). So why did I feel guilty and somewhat bad during the big confrontation?
It was only at the very end that it hit me. With the exception of Siwon and Taemin, Jiwook was the most "human". He was god awful and deserved to be punished severely for the unforgivable acts that he had such a heavy hand in, do not misunderstand me. I would feel angriest when he was interacting with Taemin or Siwon, and I would feel this guilty pity when he was talking to Siwoon or Yohoon. At some point, I believed that there would be a reveal that Jiwook's body had been used by Yohoon and co' too, that Jiwook in some ways was a victim, but that wasn't the case. He was heinous, but still, so was Yohoon. But Yohoon wasn't that much worse than his lackeys, and they weren't worse than the classmates, who themselves weren't better than siwoon. In the end, they were all monster who either participated or remained amused and entertained (or even bored) bystanders. They were ALL complicit. But only Jiwook had a reason, no matter how fallible and imbecilic it was. Yet he was the only one who was implied to be punished out of the countless perpetrators.
This all made me realize how terrified I was for Taemin (and thus Siwon). Taemin was fighting so hard for a future that would be HIS, only for it to be ripped away from him so unfairly. Even more heartbreaking that he was just quickly thinking about that future and those goals that he was closer to than ever, when it happened.
To know that Siwon had woken up for a split moment in Taemin's body and then still died, taking it with him, likely never realizing that the switch had even happened... To know that both of them lost their identities, efforts and work, goals and dreams, everything, in that moment.
A lot of readers feel upset that Taemin didn't fight for Siwon's justice, but I somewhat don't fully agree. When he realized that Siwoon had gone through hell, he felt a sense of responsibility to find out what happened and maybe even get Siwon justice. In the end, though, they never knew each other. When Siwon died, Taemin's body and all that was attached to it, also died; I wonder if there was any resentment over that (even if it obviously wouldn't have been siwon's fault.) I think I would've.
I mentioned that I was terrified for Taemin. Even with his explanation for feeling so attached to Siwoon, I felt like there was a lot more at hand.
There was a scene where Taemin mentioned that nothing in Siwon's environment belonged to Taemin, and that he felt bad using Siwon's money because of it. Everything around Taemin was fully unfamiliar, everyone was a stranger or an enemy; any reason to dream or to think about the future became unnecessary, because this new life wasn't even his.
Siwoon was the only familiar face, so he latched on to him. But even siwoon had changed so fundamentally that I questioned whether he could even be considered the same person anymore. Everything about him had changed. Og Siwoon even stated that Siwoon killed his original self, his identity. What familiarity was there really for Taemin.
But Taemin was so hyperfocused and fixated. I wondered if it was purposeful that the parents were never mentioned again after the coma, or that Taemin never explored any hobbies, or did every day things (without Siwoon) like eating or sleeping. Even when his dream of going to school was to some degree fulfilled, that is pushed to the side in favour of Siwoon.
Hmmm, Taemin kept complaining about Siwon's body's lack of stamina, muscle, etc, but never did anything to change this... Even when he previously had gotten his original body to a very fit state. Everything that made Taemin his own person was almost fully stripped to make place for Siwoon; Taemin who was a complex character became very one dimensional. Even at the end he never revealed to have any dreams or hopes for the future outside of Siwoon, and that has left me anxious.
Mm, this is perhaps unrelated, but I wish Taemin did more to honour his past self and that Siwon got some type of redemption, or at least acknowledgement. I hoped that we would get a scene of Taemin "telling" Siwon that he had done well and deserved to be at peace, even if it had to be in death. I hoped we would get a scene where Jiwook doing literally anything to remember and show gratitude to Siwoon and all of the efforts he did to be a good brother, even if he never realized that Siwon had actually died back then.
I hope I wasn't too negative... I loved a lot about this story, and just the fact that it made me have so many thoughts shows that, I think. This is such an amazing first story, so I hope that the author is very, very proud of herself because she did do a good job, I think. I'm really excited to see what she'll do in the future and I'll be following her work closely.
I apologise again for the very long read, but if you have read this far, I'd love to read your thoughts. :>
just finished rereading the whole thing UGHHH i really miss them
crazy ass pink dude
also, i think that means his time in taekin's body is getting shorter now? coz he switched to taekin's late and got back to his own body on usual time. i'm just curious how it'll be next since he can't get to school if taekin's body wake up even later than schools hour....... or was that a dream?
IT'S MARCHHHHH HOPEFULLY THE SEASON 3 IS COMING SOON