kei_k's manga / #Friends to Lovers(17)

read: 02/05/18 It's not the kind of love with mostly fluffy or heat-fulttering moments, but it's the mature and reassuring kind of love. It's the kind of love I wish to have for the rest of my life. <3 I like that there were no unnecessary drama and rivals. It's more about them understanding each other better, even after being together for so long. It's them accepting their partner and compromising without feeling so victimized..

Finished on 5/28/18

meh... Sagara was nicer in the other story... couldn't feel his sincerity/love for Hibiki since he's almost always wanting sex when they're together.. like idk. I expected more esp cos they're childhood friends..

start/end: 11/13/18

start: 02/15/19 fin: 02/17/19 ~ I'm not sure how to rate this one.. Reading this was confusing and frustrating at times, but I can understand why it took them so long and done so much just to be together. This totally lives up to that relationship status: It's Complicated. This manga shows how scary love is. In fear that a romantic relationship may not last long, just like their past relationships, they agree to stay as friends and pretend that they don't know of each other's feelings. After all, having a one-sided love yet being together seems more appealing than having it reciprocated but still breaking up sooner or later. They keep their "love" in the boundary that does not cross the romantic relationship (which they both had - with women), to maintain the status quo - being together and feeling "unrequited love" deep within. Personally, I think I feel more comfortable being in an unrequited love, too, rather than being in an actual relationship because when you commit, you subconsciously expect to receive the same things you give. And when you feel like you give so much more than you receive, you feel disappointed and may even start doubting if you really should stay with that person. But if you are in an unrequited love, you'd still hurt. But at least, you have an excuse that it's totally expected and you don't desire more. Greed and jealousy. The more you love, the more you may feel insecure, if you yourself are incomplete. Unlike with unrequited love, you feel like you have the right to be greedy for your partner's time and feelings. You feel it's natural to feel jealous when your partner gives attention to someone else. You feel that that person should belong solely to you, just as you devote yourself solely to him. But guess what, the world is so much bigger than the two of you. So in order to fight alongside that person and make your relationship survive 'til the end, you should first learn to accept and love yourself. Even the sides of you that you never expected to have. You can't please everybody, and when you love, you can't avoid hurting someone. You just have to bear with it and choose wisely. .

start: 09/10/2023 up: 09/11/23 ~ ch 73