Dude was about a bundle of neuroses. He obviously had a lot of baggage and trauma, but what stuck in my craw is when he mentioned, towards the end, that there's no way he could have been in love with the FL's mother, since he was in love with the FL all the time. DUDE!!! YOU WERE 20 YEARS OLD AND SHE WAS @#$*ING SIX!!!! It's good (relatively speaking) that you waited until she was an adult before doing the El Boffador, but even then you threw her on the bed while angry with her and had sex with your clothes (including your suit coat) on and hers pretty much ripped off. To anyone seeing (including the reader), it would look no different from rape.
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