Stay At Home For Several Days

i'm so sad all the time. my parents are all the phobics you can think of and they won't let me go to therapy. i'm bi and i'm really tired of ignorant people. to be honest i don't even know why i'm sad. i really just want a hug from someone. being alive is so hard. i convince myself that there are reasons to stay alive but i'm probably just really scared to die and for nobody to care.

i have like a dream world where i am somebody else. i go there and i do all the things i want to do, but i'm still sad. i don't know why, maybe it doesn't matter.

also i have a sex addiction.