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so uhm i got this one friend whos diagnosed with bpd and depression. we met online but ive seen them multiple times irl so i did consider them as one of my friends.

so just a while ago they bursted out to me bcs they noticed that i removed them from my private social media account. i explained that i removed them plus all my other friends because i want to delete it (i dont rlly use that account except for game clips and shitpost). they kept on saying that they feel left out and i dont consider them as my friend etc. they also mention that they feel lonely bcs i didnt text much and they thought im distancing myself away bcs i hate them or smth. i explained myself so hard that theyre important in my life
and i didnt even hate them one bit. rn they dont reply to any of my text and im getting anxious.

i know this is not about that account and all
but i did think that this is kinda my fault for making them feel that way bcs im a bit closer to another of my friend but in the same circle. i mean the closeness is only in the surface bcs we dont even talk that much except when we’re in game. i genuinely never think of it a big of a deal bcs i rlly enjoy being w them both equally but ig the other one think otherwise.

just to be clear, i genuinely think that removing someone from a social media isnt a bit of a deal(they also had one that they think i didnt know but i lowkirkenuinely dont care.) i did think they react like that bcs i was more closer to idk if its important to mention this but im also not a big fan of texting constantly. i can go days or months of not interacting with my friends and i can still talk to them normally. i did say this to them multiple times, that im not a big fan of texting constantly, but ig reassurance is rlly a big part of their life.

i feel like im obligated to stay by their side atm but this is not the first time that they burst out like this so its rlly starting to burn me out. i asked others for their opinion but i think that i need stranger’s opinion on this bcs i rlly rlly dont know how to feel. plsplspls help me out TT

my friend just had the worst break up ever and she said she need some space cus being alone is how she cope. the thing is we’re basically 24/7 together and i dont have any ride to go to class as shes the only one that own a car (and license). well idc about walking to my campus (even tho it took like 15-20 mins) cus ive done it like everyday a year ago but i just dk how should i act when im around her and i dont even know if i should just leave her alone completely or act like nothing happen like ykwim. i have no problem at giving her space since ik she got a lot of shit on her plate but at the same time i dont think i should leave her alone cus it’ll make me look like a bitch of a friend that let their friend suffer in silence BUT if i still hang around her i FOR SURE will let my mouth running all the time and possibly will say smth that make her uncomfortable. im so sorry for asking this kind of question on THIS site but i rlly need other suggestions rn. (for declaration, im aroace so ive never deal w a breakup b4 thats why idk what to do or how to deal w it)

PLEASE PLSSS PLS STOP ANSWERING THISSS PLS FOR THE LOVE OF GOD AND EVERYTHING HOLY I DO NOT WANT TO BE REMINDED OF MY 2021 SELF EVERYTIME I OPEN THIS GAY SEX AND EVERYTHING ILLEGAL WEBSITE IM BEGGING U I NEARLY DIED FROM ALL THE SECONDHAND EMBARRASSMENT QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS I POSTED IN THIS FUCKING WEBSITE PLS STYOP REMINDING ME OF MY DARK AGE IM GONNA DIE PLS STOP PLS

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