Lmao

they always go apeshit when the bottom does the same thing as the top does like sleeping with multiple people but when it's the top they find it hot and would thirst over it but when it's the bottom they would make essays on how the bottom is a slut like why can't you give the same energy? I feel like they're just jealous and angry lmao cause it's always the same people when I try to stalk them.

This might be a bit too long. It's a love problem(or maybe not rlly love). I'm a girl(just for reference)

So, recently I realised that I'm k with dating girls too. I share all my secrets to my bestie (a girl), so eventually I told her this one too and we had kinda like a huge conversation where we might date, or even if we date how it would go, or like if we'll still be friends even after dating and all that stuff. It started cause I was like I'm not sure if I can love girls cause I've never rlly tried dating anyone,
and thn I told I need someone to date to confirm that, Thn we were like why don't we date. It was a rllyyyy awkward conversation but still we it like its normal. Few days later I did tarot reading( I like it) and apparently, what I got from it was that a friend of mine is in love with me and vice versa. The first person who came to my mind was my bestie. From thn on somehow, I just feel something in my chest. Then after like several days we talked again( I was soooo damn happy we could talk) and while talking she just said that she doesn't have any friends to talk to and right thn my chest suddenly caught me and I was rlly depressed when she said that. We have a lot of interests in common, we don't talk much at all, and somehow I was the only one who was talking the most in the latest call we had. Her mind wasn't rlly in the conversation we had ( it might be cause she was stressed) and she left saying we'll talk tomorrow (since her mom was calling her). But we didn't chat or talk the nxt day( somehow I used to think about her every time my mind was free) or the days later. I just felt lonely and sad, but I'm not sure. And today when I saw someone coming towards our house, I literally thought it was her and (I'm 75% sure) my heart skipped a beat. So I wanted to know from you guys.
It's rlly not k(due to some personal situation) for me to fall in love with her, but at least I need to know. I know from what I've told it might sound like I'm in love, but I'm just rlly not sure.

What I'm feeling - is it romantic love or just friendly love(since we don't talk or chat much, even though we're besties)??

Oh and thank you soo much for reading my huuugggeee paragraph