Disturbing Thing You Saw

Ash —
I’m worried to death because I haven’t been able to see you doing well.

You said we live in different worlds. But is that true?
We have different colored skin and eyes. We were born in different countries.
But we’re friends. Isn’t that what counts?

I’m really glad I came to America. I met lots of people.
And more than anything, I met you.

You asked me over and over if you scared me. But I never feared you, not once.
What’s more is you’re hurt much more than me. I couldn’t help feeling that way.
Funny, huh?

You’re way smarter, bigger, and stronger than me. But I always felt like I had to protect you. I wonder what it is I wanted to protect you from.
I wanted to protect you from fate.
The fate that tries to carry you away, drifting futher and futher.

You told me once about a leopard you read in a book. How you believed that leopard knew that it couldn’t go back.
And I said you weren’t a leopard, that you could change your destiny.

You’re not alone. I’m by your side.
My soul is always with you.

— Eiji Okumura ”

This was when I was still living with her I’m with my dad now but after my parents divorced my dad asked me to stay with her so he could buy a new house and furnish it and then I could move in with him. We didn’t tell her but she was really happy that I chose to stay with her though she still but didn’t trust me and put a camera in my room without me knowing in case I said anything about wanting to stay with my dad. I said it one day and she yelled at me, slapped me and took my device and shit. She then talked about how she carried me for nine months and she could have killed me but I’m alive rn. I thought she had the right(putting cameras in my room) as she was my mom and it was her house. After I left her house I told my dad and he told me that it’s not normal at all...