Disturbing Thing You Saw

Is sucking your own penis as a straight male makes you gay? i get you want to know what it feels like to get a blow job but technically your also doing a blow job, but its gay, or sometimes not, take a scenario where youre all alone and ur super horny and you wanted to know what it felt like to get a blowjob so you sucked your own penis, but your sucking a penis rn so your doing a blowjob and that makes you gay cs why would you want to suck a cock? but you want to know what it feels like to get a blowjob but you sucked a penis so youre gay, but you only sucked one and its yours, but what if you came? you technically came bec you sucked your own cock and your a straight male so youre gay right? im so confused pls help this is harder than my last year finals

You know how some character have absurd designs? Like big hands, huge neck, funny toes, etc.