Masturbated To Yaoi

I always daydream wherever and whenever I was. And every day is a whole new story. Well, sometimes I would continue my favorite stories. And some of my daydreams came from my dreams though, and probably some from my own life experiences. It was like a whole library here in my mind! I would constantly write my daydreams into my notes then wait for another daydream. Then my daydreams are often fantasy, action, supernatural and etc. Not horror though, I'm a scaredy cat.
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like my love for reading manga has made me unable to read word by word novels and Im so fucked Ive started listening to audiobooks
I have found myself awake at 5 am listening to the audiobooks like wtf
the way I entertain myself as a college student scares me
I read manga, watch anime, and listen to audiobooks
bruh wut am I doing with my life
like satan pls give me a sign as to how to live my degenerate life
do I lose my virginity?
do I study?
do I start a cult that worships ducks?
someone pls give me some advice on productive things to do
Ive already designed a house
made a slideshow of my fashion aesthetic
made a husbando and waifu list
and cleaned my room multiple times
I think something is wrong with me
guys wtf even is life