Need A Study Buddy

Hey~ I fought with my best friend :D Wtf am I gonna do now ( ⚈⌢⚈) I'm an introvert in and out. So, I don't rly know how to deal with this. Wtf do I do to make her feel better. Does she hate me now. She was seriously mad and I could tell. Usually she would joke around, but I don't think she is this time. I have exams coming soon, and I can't help but be bothered by this by a LOT. I can't really study like this. I can't really say this to her cuz I was the one to blame. I don't know how to make her accept my apologies :( And I hate this... She won't respond to my messages... I feel most comfortable with her when talking about anything, so her ignoring me felt like I just jumped of a cliff willingly and left all the doggies at home. Do I leave her alone? Do I give her some time to think? Or should i keep apologizing? Idk anymore... ( ⚈⌢⚈)

Me and I my friend were friends for almost 2 years. She was the quiet one and I was just the typical average girl with average amount of friends. She and I have lived in different worlds. She wore those bizarre goth-like appearances and those shocking bulky makeup. All I can say that time was, it was terrible..
I.. liked trends and tend to stick to normalcy.

After 2 years, we grew closer to the point that I had to defend her from her bullies (People used to hate her a lot, because people considered her super weird and.. Her idleness made people hate her more especially in school group activities at school.)

There was one time where she didn't really had the energy to do anything because she was tired of being oppressed by the kids who acted superior towards her (Almost all of the people i knew tbh..). It really hurt me to realize her situation and I've gone mad at those people and decided to defend her because she was innocent and she didn't have to get treated like that... Smh

I decided to throw away my pathetic social life because the people who ones looked up to me started hating me for residing with a *nerd* (I guess they were brainwashed by this fking convention and started to believe it was real. Ignorance is a bliss.)

I hate the guys.And.Yer.Shtz
She and I later realized we're both gay.