Losing Will To Do Anything

Imagine the services it gets by getting sat on

Okay my bisexual ass has been confused ever since I've tried to embrace my sexuality. But to hell I'm confused a lot.
I stare at my ceiling often, wondering which side am I actually on and then I go about the next day thinking that I'm probably lying to myself, what if I'm this and that. I keep saying it's okay to be confused and all that but I can't stop.

Holy fuck, I'm so confused what am I doing with life. The internet says that it's better to be attracted to one gender but I know that's not it. I feel a bit of pressure on my back thinking why am I attracted to both. There's this fucking asshole on my head that keeps saying "You know you can't do that. It's going to be too much for you and you're going to end up very confused if you are attracted to both."
I want to smack that little shit but what if it's true...
I don't know what to do. If I'm aware that being attracted to not one gender is ok, then what else am I still confused about? Is it that I don't trust myself enough with these thoughts?





Um I'm kinda sorry I'm spouting this here. I did see some answers on the net but I can't help but let things out