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So I've wanted to ask this question for a while. I hope y'all won't hate me for posting personal things. I'm asking this question here cause there are a lot of people in here who have gone through similar things and are experienced plus I don't wanna tell my friends. So I have to make a decision, either go to another school to study IT with unfamiliar people for 2 years (grade 9 and 10) and you dont have to go to collage cause you will learn all the things that they'll teach in collage in those 2 years or continue studying in my current school with my friends whom I have spent my 6 years with and go to collage.. If I go to that school I have a chance to get a scholarship. Its not like I can't get scholarship in my current school... Its just that if I get scholarship from a government school I'll have a high chance to get a good job in my country plus if I study IT I can get some part time job and earn some money pretty early.... Tbh I want to go to that school but I have social anxiety.. I don't wanna leave my friends behind and go to a unfamiliar environment.. Just thinking about it is scary.. Plus I'm scared of boys. I don't wanna get close to them.. I'm even scared of my male friends whom I have spent 6 years with.. Life is honestly so hard.. Pls tell me what should I do? And I have heard bad rumor bout that school saying that people have regretted going there or something.. ╥﹏╥

hey i’m sleep deprived and very dumb and i don’t really get people but i’m just really interested abt what other people think n worry abt because a lot of the time i feel like big worries for one person can seem very small to another and such. i like getting different perspectives, it feels like i don’t have to live in my head as much shsj. doesn’t matter if they’re temporary or big or small just spill. i’ll start: the thought of having to be myself in my body forever while i can’t even properly realize if i am real and existent or not just.. messes w me especially when i think about being abandoned or alone dhdje that’s pretty vague but i’m also very scared of the consequences of my illnesses since theyll most likely cost me a leg or both when i’m older. feels like i’m just waiting to get them chopped dhsjwiwj anyway yea

Most of the yaoi manga are all about non-consenting sex or the plot is all about sex. If it's not about sex, try to remplace one of the characters with a female and you'll feel like reading a cringey shoujo. There's only a few of good/ god-tier yaoi mangas. :)

Even if I hate a manga I stay through to the end just to mark it as read lmao